Tuesday, April 09, 2013
I will soon be marking my fourth year with Sparks. At least I am still here. But I have to admit that for the past year I have just been spinning my wheels. (Does that count as exercise?)
I read some words today that really fit me. 'Rationalize (that is, rational lies).' I am going to keep that in mind as I know that too often I do 'rationalize' about my eating. "Oh, it's ok to buy that Dark Chocolate. I know you can control yourself"; "That little bit of peanut butter eaten with a spoon out of the jar isn't going to hurt"; "You need to keep ice cream in the house in case you have company and, of course, you know they will probably like the Peanut Butter Panic flavor".
I had reached my goal at one time and the only good thing is that I haven't gained it all back as has happened in the past. But without getting myself in control now, that could so easily happen.
I have no one else to feed besides myself so there is no reason to buy any foods that aren't right for me. If ever I were going to get going in the right direction, now is the time because the season for fresh fruits and vegetables is upon us.
Another thing that I know is going to help. I now have an accountability partner who is going to be lifting me and my 'food addiction' up to the One who can guide me in my choices.