Tuesday, April 09, 2013
About 2 and a half weeks ago, I got some sort of cold/flu/sinus infection/ allergy thing that completely knocked me out and made me achy, congested, and completely lacking energy. I rested and recovered and the blasted virus lingered and it took about a week and a half to even breathe through my nose again! For the first several days I was sick, I was antsy and really missing exercise but I couldn't breathe and had a fever. I wanted to cook my meals so that I knew exactly what went into them, but I was just exhausted. And unfortunately, far more quickly than I got into these healthy habits, I very quickly fell out of them.
I think I've realized that - having finally actually established healthy behaviors AS HABIT - I expected that they would stick around and become my new baseline the same way all the unhealthy habits had been my default for so long. Imagine my disappointment to discover that despite all my work and good intentions, I'm going to have to keep making this decision over and over and over again. Maybe at some point in the future, it will become my default, but I've had unhealthy behaviors for an awfully long time, so it'll probably take quite a while for that to happen.
Regardless, today, I've made the right choices again. After a week of doing the Hip Hop Abs videos but nothing more strenuous, I went to the gym today. I've tracked all my food today. I did a morning meditation when I woke up, and I'm going to do another one when I go to bed. And tomorrow, I may not keep every one of these good habits, but I don't have to wait a full day or full week or even longer to change my behaviors if I slip up.
When I first started on this journey, my profile picture was a motivational sign that said "If you're tired of starting over, stop giving up." That hit home with me for a reason, and I'm pretty proud that even though the last few weeks have not been my best, I haven't given up.
I'm not starting over today. I'm just continuing on.