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I'm Getting New Glasses...Why is this Scaring the heck out of me?

Monday, April 08, 2013

I have an appointment next Monday to get my eyes checked. It is LONG overdue, a part of getting myself in order that I have been dedicated to doing. This will mean that I will be getting a new prescription, of course, my eyes have REALLY changed since the last time they were checked! emoticon

Now...I have been trying to figure out why this has been making me so uncomfortable. I have been told by a number of people close to me that when I get said new glasses that I should get smaller frames, that the ones I have chosen before have been larger than they should be for the shape of my face. A friend of mine wants to go with me to help me, and it has my stomach in knots even thinking about it.
I think I have it figured out, but this is going to sound really wierd. emoticon
But this is me we're talkin' about here, so wierd is not so strange. I don't want smaller frames because I have used them in the past to hide behind. Hiding is what I do. At least it is what I have done for a very long time. And it was just another way to put myself "behind" something and not allow others inside. So that explains the butterflies every time I think about wearing a pair of eyeglasses that allow my face to be seen more, for people to see ME more.
I sure wish I could talk to my therapist about this, to see if I'm workin' something out here or if I'm just out of my ever lovin' mind. Oh well, I have my friends here. And I can ask for input, because that is also part of my getting better. Asking for help.
So what I will do is go to my appointment, get my new prescription and allow Donna to help me make the next step in my journey to being a healthy, happy human woman. And NOT let the nerves send me into a tailspin.
I CAN do this.
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  • CANNIE50
    Don't overthink it, doll. Let your friend weigh in, along with the optical person who fits the frames on you, and then choose some glasses because they are flattering, not because you want to use them as camoflauge, you don't need a disguise to hide behind. Good for you for getting your eyes retested. I find that process very annoying, but necessary. emoticon
    1804 days ago
    Yes, GF, please let Donna help. I used to wear the big glasses too. They were in style and I felt I looked best in them but they went out of style and I was still in them. I had family and friends try to steer me toward the smaller frames and I was reluctant but I discovered that often other people are more objective about our looks than we are. Try on lots of frames and have your friend and the employee agree on which ones look best on you and then when they have narrowed it down it will make your job easier. You won't be freaked out by the ones you don't look good in. It was easy for me to select the ones I liked out of the ones my son and the clerk had settled on. Everyone really liked my new glasses and commented favorably on them. I buy the same general shape as it fits my face. You are a beautiful person and need to stop hiding behind anything.
    1807 days ago
    You CAN do this! I know just what you mean.
    A few years ago, I was in the same process of getting myself in order. I knew I needed glasses, but I kept putting it off. It wasn't that I didn't want people to see me with glasses. I just knew that with glasses I would be able to see people's expressions as they looked at me! I was like a little kid -- if I can't see you, you can't see me, right?

    Let your friend help you. This is important.

    1810 days ago
    I hope you find the courage to show yourself to the world. Your profile says it all, creating a new you!
    1810 days ago
    It's good to have someone along to help you choose the frames. I have made an appointment for today, and I had forgotten about the choosing frames bit! But last time I even surprised myself and got some bright purple frames emoticon
    1811 days ago
    Good Luck!
    1811 days ago
  • TLG71567
    It sounds like your friends have your back here. They want you to look as beautiful as they know you are. I am glad that you have their support. Let Donna go with you and have fun picking out new frames that truly compliment your face. emoticon
    1811 days ago
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