Monday, April 08, 2013
I have decided to start from scratch. Not that I've been close to letting go of this beautiful journey, but because I've been letting things slide.
I have found myself eating when I shouldn't. And eating more than necessary when I do. I find myself giving in to the temptation at work and going to restaurants for celebrations and date nights.
I buy little mini chocolate candy and keep them at my desk for a coworker. For the first couple weeks, I abstained. Since though, I've been bad. Real bad. One Twix turns into a Twix and a Snickers. Throw in a couple Milky Ways. All of a sudden, Shelby needs to replenish the bag. Yuck. Needs. To. Stop.
This must end.
Yesterday, I decided to go back to basics. I went grocery shopping and bought only the foods I bought when I began my journey. Steak, vegetables, fruits, low calorie options. I bought only what was on my list. That felt good.
I brought out my measuring cup for my cereal and for my fruits. I'm back to paying attention to serving sizes. I need this. I have felt so out of control lately.
Hell, I even drank 12 glasses of water yesterday. You don't realize how much you miss that refreshment until you're taking a sip and your body almost seems to be saying 'thank you'.
The morning runs will be starting up again, while it's in the 60s. I still go to the gym after work, but I don't think I'll be renewing my membership when it expires next month. (Can't afford it with my rent increase)
So many things are going on in my life right now and I need some semblance of order. Some sense of control of the things I CAN change.
Back to basics I go. It feels good.