Monday, April 08, 2013
So, if you've read my little bitty bio on my profile, you'll see that this is actually my second profile on Sparkpeople. I was tired of looking at those huge bouts of time were I didn't do anything. So...I made a new one.
And I'm doing the exact same thing.
It's very frustrating.
One day, my will power just isn't up to par and I gorge on whatever is around. I made it past the Bad Religion concert, I jumped right back on that horse after my parents giant Easter dinner spread...but then I got sick Just a little head cold, but it just sucks the life out of ya. I also have a problem with depression. So the two collided into this mass kind of like the Perfect Storm and my brain and my stomach finally rallied against my will. And they won. While I eat that delicious five layer burrito, I chastise myself with every bite. This endless loop of losing self-control while still reprimanding oneself is tough. My self-esteem is already pretty low. Work is tough so I'm constantly stressed out. So stumbling on a good die run seems like a catastrophic failure.
I'm sure I'm echoing everyone and everything anyone has ever said about a diet. I sure I've said it in the past on my other profile....but I need to say it again. To vent these frustrations. I have to remind myself that regardless if it's been said and thought before, my words need to be released or they just stew about in my brain.
Stumbling shouldn't be so bad, i should tell myself that yes, it kind of sucks you gave into that chicken sandwich from Wendy's(if you couldn't tell, fast food is my weakness) but that doesn't mean give up. Cause that's not going to do anything but more harm.