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Glad the weekend is over....


Sunday, April 07, 2013

Well, it wasn't the worst weekend but it wasn't the best either.

I got very frustrated and sad and mad- mainly because of drama in the family between my sons and then between my husband and me- who is NOT my biggest fan.

On a positive note my younger son Nate went with me both days to see my mom at rehab which was good. She is a little more lively when he is there though she has a new roommate who can't hear anything she says to her AND must have half the population of the town coming to see her every day. It makes it a little awkward to try and have a conversation. The three previous roommates were great so I guess 75% is a good average.

When he goes with me it means that I run out of time to stop and take a short walk which I did a couple days a week last week. Today he went with me because he and my older son were not getting along and he needed some distance. He was feeling frustrated and unhappy- which lead him to want to try Popeye's chicken on way home. Which he did not like- I ordered a shrimp po boy- which I liked but left me with few calories for later.

We came home to more negativity which just got me down- I will be so happy when I am earning my own money again- even though it will not be that much.
Anyway I felt really sad and all I could think of was eating chocolate- Nate brought me a vita muffin top which was good. But I wanted more- ended up eating a small bit of his chocolate Easter bunny and then hot chocolate with marshmallows. I haven't felt that kind of sad eating in several months.

I did finally get up out of my slump and go back to work on laundry- I put in my time on the exercise bike and now I am looking forward to tomorrow.
It is my last week before work starts- I have a lunch date tomorrow with my friend I haven't seen since November and then later in day I meet another social worker to clinically supervise her- which I really enjoy. And in between I will make a reluctant appt with the
dentist. I already have my breakfast and dinner planned to accommodate my lunch date.

Looking forward to a healthy, happier Monday-
thanks for being here Spark Friends!
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ITCANBEDONE2013 4/23/2013 9:03AM

  I feel so much for you and really admire you for your strength. I have to deal a lot with negativity and problems lately and I know it is not easy - I am not doing half as good as you and have piled on the weight to a dangerous degree!

Please remember, we, 'spark-friends', are always here to hear you out and help so use the blog as much as you need, we want to hear from you.

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SHARIKAYE 4/9/2013 1:55AM

    I really hope things start to work out for your mom. I know that adds a lot of stress to your life right now. To have your sons not getting along either just adds a little more stress. And then with things not going the best with your husband I'm surprised you don't explode. You slipped up, but you turned around and got on your exercise bike. You didn't sit and wallow in it. And look you planned ahead for today. I can't wait to hear how your lunch with your friend went.
I don't know what I would do, personally, without the Lord to lean on. I don't know if you get a K-LOVE station in your area, but if you like music, check your radio to see if you have one. It's a contemporary Christian station and it helps me stay positive. Any other Christian station would work too. Just a suggestion.
Your life is really hard right now, but you are doing an amazing job at prioritizing your health and wellness journey. Keep up the good work my friend. I'm right here with ya.

Shari

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KIMBERLYJA1 4/8/2013 9:57PM

    Holy crap you are dealing with a lot. I recognize what you describe when you mention the sad eating--I have done that too! I also do a lot of angry eating. So destructive.
Will you make sure you plan something nice to treat yourself? A pedicure, a magazine, a bath? Sounds like you need a little pampering!

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SHARILYNN468 4/8/2013 5:04PM

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aww ya poor girl `HUGS`

hang in there, hun.. we are all here for you when you need to vent!

`Shari xoxo
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CRYERMAMA 4/8/2013 10:54AM

    You know that I get it about the husband. I am having some of the same issues. Only it is my husband against my kids. We just have to have faith that things will work out. And we need to workout. LOL Hang in there girl! I am with you!

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MCYNDYM 4/8/2013 10:51AM

    Marianne,

I can understand what you're going through. My siblings and I have put both our parents thru hell and back. I have done my fair share of grief-giving to my parents with everything I had going on in my life.

Yesterday, I told my sis, she should not be so snarky and rude to our parents. Now, she won't talk to me. I guess, I'm not her favorite person at the moment. Oh, well. By Fri. she'll be talking to me again.

As far as spouse drama... I've had those moments. I remember a fight between my husband and I, over him being a diabetic and drinking. The next day, I had broken every (alcohol) serving glass and bottle of alcohol in the house with a bat. Ya, I had some anger issues that I needed to deal with that day.

I'm happy that you got to see your mom and spend time with her. I am really happy that you get a lunch date with a friend. It will help lift your spirits, by just talking to a friend.

You will have an amazing week this week and next. Remember my friend, struggles happen daily, we can roll with the punches or we can let the punches knock us down. No matter what we must stand back up and be ready to fit again for what we want and need most from this life.

Hugs, Love and Laughter!!!

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TATTER3 4/8/2013 6:53AM

    So sorry for the stress. Prayers.

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KIMH51 4/8/2013 5:55AM

    sounds like you have a full plate, pardon the pun.. just keep pushing, one step at a time... we are all your biggest fans!!! you really do not lack in support, thats one thing you have going for you. If you slide and need your choc fix, (who doesn't every once in a while)... ENJOY IT, don't feel guilty over it... at least make it count for what it is, a slight mood lifter. Hey, you work out, you're dealing with extra "crap" with your mom right now and from the sounds of it your hubby and your sons, exercise outside might have been the better choice yes, but you have to deal with things as they happen, and this time you choose choc, next time maybe not.

Hope your Monday is better - enjoy your lunch date.

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SUSANBEAMON 4/8/2013 1:09AM

  every day has it's own special joy, we just have to find it. keep up the positive attitude.

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