Sunday, April 07, 2013
I am going to get to bed early tonight because I want to be ready to face the challenges and excitement of getting to know a new student tomorrow. I am going to be positive and am sure that this girl will enrich my life in ways I haven't even begun to imagine so far. There are so many challenges when the class changes but also opportunities for growth and new experiences.
I read a troubling post today and felt sad and really blessed at the same time. The post stated that the person is OLD, FAT, and UGLY (one of the responses added STUPID). I was really bothered by it. This is kind of funny because I USED to feel that way all of the time and yet, now, it just doesn't seem to even be a concept I can wrap my head around. I KNOW that I am certainly NOT younger technically because the calendar and mirror tell me I am OLDER than before - BUT I no longer consider myself OLD. I KNOW I am still OBESE - yeah, I have lost about 70 pounds but frankly I STILL HAVE another 130 to go to get to the level that the charts say puts my in the appropriate weight range - but I don't consider myself FAT most of the time any more. I consider that I am ON MY WAY and journeying to a healthy weight and that I WILL get there eventually. I certainly am not beauty queen, but instead of calling myself UGLY, I see that I am a pretty wonderful person inside - that there is kindness, love, caring, and generosity in this person. I also refuse to accept the idea of STUPIDITY as even a concept for my life. We women especially need to stop seeing our FLAWS, weaknesses and areas that need improvement as a CONDEMNATION of US as people. That these things make us worthless, useless, or unworthy of respect, kindness, consideration, or love.
I am starting to ramble. I am shaking over this post because someone out there (not ONE but MANY someones) who is hurting and more importantly is hurting themselves.
Prayers, love, peace, and kindness going out to everyone out there who is doing this to themselves.
YOU ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL, STRONG, CAPABLE, WORTHY OF LOVE, and DESERVING OF ALL THE BEST that can be showered on you. LOVE YOURSELF and allow the rest of us to see what a wonderful person you are.
Thanks for listening - have a serene, loving, kind evening and a good night's sleep kissed by angels, surrounded by love, and healing rest.