The number isn't enough
Sunday, April 07, 2013
My original goal weight was 124 pounds and I have managed to remain in a few pounds of that (plus or minus depending on time of year) for 3 years now. Yay me! When that challenge was over I moved on and did Couch to 5K and succeeded. After I hurt my back I was unable to continue running and was content with the fact that I have managed to maintain my original weight loss.
It's not enough anymore. Just because you achieve a number on the scale doesn't mean you are healthy! I am so blessed to have re-configured my metabolism! I am blessed to be able to eat close to 2000 calories a day and only walk 4-6 miles a day to maintain my weight. But I am realizing lately I am getting lazy! Just because I am not gaining the weight back doesn't mean I am doing my best. Things are not proportioned the way I would like them. I am flabbier than I would like. The way I look in clothes doesn't really reflect the way I FEEL in them and the feeling is more important! I want to be toned and fit. I have been putting wonderful foods in my body but lately I have also been putting some not so wonderful foods in it. I feel like a fraud because I look healthier than I am and I want to feel as healthy as I look.
So today begins a new challenge - toning up, losing inches and cutting down the junk. I took my measurements this AM and by the end of the summer I would like to lose a few inches here and there or turn the inches I have into solid muscle rather than extra skin. I want to keep eating healthy and learn some moderation again. Just because I CAN eat crap at night and maintain my weight loss doesn't mean I SHOULD. Eventually these bad habits will catch up with me and I won't be able to win this game every time.
The number on the scale is no longer my priority...I came, I saw, I conquered on that. It's time for me to shed this version of myself and not be satisfied with average. Time for me to step up my game and realize there is ALWAYS room for improvement and new challenges. Game on!