I wrote a few days ago in my blog chanllenge regarding whether I was ready for a new lifestyle change. I have been doing some of the right things,, falling and getting up after I fall,,, but I have been on the ground so many times,,, it is frustrating!
Nevertheless, I have really been thinking about whether I am committed to a new lifestyle of eating and exercising.... OR if I am just "going through the motions"!
had lots of stuff going on,,,, BUT everyone has things going on in their lives,,,, these are just excuses,,,, so now I must accept what it is,,,, lack of focus and using food improperly to make me "feel good",,, sounds silly and I being a logical being recognize that it is silly but nevertheless, it is true and frustrating! ,,, and unfortunately I have to report that I had not weighed myself in about a week,,,, and I found out today that I GAINED 5 pounds!!! I am trying to be positive but I am so disappointed in myself
OMG Well,,, I know that I have to put on my "big girl panties" and take responsibility for all the little "cheats" by eating Easter candy,,,, etc. BUT it still does not feel good... it stinks being here,,,,, I started taking a nutrition and weight loss support but I need to get committed or get off the train entirely.
Ahhh,,, I am not ready to give up on me,,,,, sorry friends that I am on such a merry go round,,,, but this is my journey and I have to make the committment to me and to my health!!! I will not let this get me down,,,, but will make a plan for success... and keep moving forward,,,, and get committed to this goal. Thank you my spark friends for your ear!