This is what I woke up to today.
It's a friggin' winter wonderland out there today.
I have enough trouble getting out the door as it is. This is just making it so much easier - NOT!!!
But I'm remembering one of my Daily Visualizations from this past week. It has to do with visualizing what I see and how it feels to get outside, rather than just sit on the couch. I do have to admit - reluctantly - that a very tiny part of me knows I'll feel so much better for doing it. There is not much wind today, so it won't be as nasty as it was on Friday. There shouldn't be too much water to splash - it's likely all frozen.
I only have 7 days this week to meet my goals. I can't afford to keep "taking days off" It'll just keep me stuck where I am now.
If I want to do well today, I need to get moving. If I want to get 100% for today, I need to get moving AND get to the gym as well today.
time to log off and get moving. Where's Lulu's leash?
Back from today's run. It was tough, but we made it. I honestly think it's a mental block. Run5min walk1min and repeat for 30min. I had trouble with this one last time too. In fact, I always had issues with the first 6-10minutes of running. Then my body settles into it and I can seem to go forever.
I took a Visi this morning before my run. I can't believe it. I forgot to eat before I went running. I know. You don't have to say anything. Once I realized it, I tried to settle into my run knowing I'd likely have to bail because of lack of energy/fuel.
Well, as you can see, I made it. I also came home, made breakfast, washed the dog, jumped through the shower, and went for groceries. I'm so full of energy, it's almost scary. I'm a little worried about a crash later. I guess time will tell.
It's not jittery energy either. It's actual "ready to go out there and get 'er done" energy. This is so different. I'll have to see if I like this or not.
I'm not sure if I'm going to the gym today or not. I should. I've got the energy. I've got the time. I've got the $$ to pay for it.
I'm scared. Scared I might hurt myself - that's taking on a whole lot today.
I'm scared that I just might be able to do this again. Yeah, I know. Scared of success. I'm just as scared of success as I am of failure. You all know what I'm talking about. I'm scared of finding out I'm capable of anything I put my mind to, and that I will no longer have any reasons or excuses to feel stuck anymore. That I won't be able to blame it on circumstances. That I will have to actually take RESPONSIBILITY for my successes or failures. I won't be able to pin them on others, or on the situation anymore.