Ups and Downs
Sunday, April 07, 2013
Kind of a stressful week. Not all bad, there were definitely bright spots, and yoga helped and exercise helped.
I would like to wrap all the things that made me feel that way up in a neat package, tie them to a helium balloon and let them float away. Wouldnít it be nice if it were that easy? I know itís not but the thought makes me happy.
So, here goes:
At work, there is pervasive tension and anger due to unresolved conflict on a major project. And the hiring process for the job I applied for ground to a halt because the hiring manager is on an extended absence. Thatís frustrating for me, and itís also a part of the larger problem.
The baseball season started and it is bringing back memories of my ex since we had a lot of fun watching baseball last year and I miss the good times.
I had a party, a happy hour and a gala to attend and I was stressing out over how to fit it into my program... and then felt annoyed with myself for stressing over it!
Hmm, is there more? I think thatís it. So, I am packing it up, tie it to the balloon string and let it float away. There it goes. Goodbye!
I know these things arenít that bad. And truthfully I felt better at 5 pm Friday when the work week was over.
I have a hard time balancing my need to analyze the things that stress me out with the knowledge that first, there are a lot of good things happening to me and that I have so much that I am thankful for, and second, that the things that are stressing me are nothing compared to what other people are struggling with. But I know that over the years, my ability to sweep things under the rug and minimize problems has led to bad things, including not maintaining a healthy lifestyle.
So, I am recognizing them instead of ignoring them.
I think I handled them pretty well this week. I let people know when I wasnít happy with things at work in (I think!) a diplomatic way. I went out and had a good time with friends at the various events and while I wasnít perfect, I wasnít too far off my goals, either. I exceeded my fitness goals and burned insane amount of calories (almost 2300, I think).
And now I have a whole morning to myself! That to me is luxuryÖ
So, I am sitting for a bit, enjoying my coffee, blogging a little and reading the paper. Then I will do a little meditation (definitely didnít do enough of that this week!) and after that I will straighten up and put things in order before going over to a friendís to help her pack and move. All in all a fairly relaxing day.
So, wishing the best to all of my Sparkling friends Ė may you find the strength within yourself and the support you need from your friends and families to achieve your goals today, this week and always!