It's been nearly a week since I put my thoughts to paper; life continues to be a challenge and while I am meeting some of them head-on, others are getting the best of me!
But through it all, I have come to realize that I need to focus on the positives and make every attempt to find joy in each day. There is always
in an otherwise
day if you look hard enough!
We are now 5 weeks into MIL's health issues. She was moved back to the nursing floor in her assisted living home. This week she has turned mean; greeting us with "I hate you! Go home and leave me alone! You just want my money" or "You are wasting my money paying for all this medical care and just let me die". Swearing at everyone, refusing to eat, threatening suicide...the list goes on. The doctor has ordered a psych evaluation for this coming week, as well as a nutritional evaluation and blood work.
DH and I had a long talk last night. Doubtful that she will be able to return to her beautiful apartment at this point; we had hoped that with additional care that would be a possibility. We will adjust our visits as needed, but recognize that we can't keep up the daily visits and keep our sanity. At the very least, we will shorten them depending on what greets us. Sad, but reality.
Yesterday we made the decision to put her cat to sleep. We took her in 3 years ago when we moved his mom to the assisted living apartment; although keeping a cat was an option there, she was tripping over her and we couldn't take the risk. Amber cat developed health issues the last 6 months or so, and though DH tried everything to keep her going, I finally had to put my foot down yesterday and say that I couldn't bear to see her suffering and that it was time. Fortunately he didn't fight me; we called the vet and did what needed to be done. R.I.P. beautiful Amber
So despite feeling very blue, I dressed myself up and went to my Arbonne business get-together and surrounded myself with beautiful, loving people! I know that this business is the answer to the life I want to lead and today's presentation and training gave me more of the tools I need to be successful and move out of the corporate world. I gave DH the day off from visiting MIL, and I stopped by and visited. Ignored the outbursts and made the best of the visit. Came home and had a simple dinner of grilled chicken and broccoli with DH, then watched a movie together. A quiet evening; today we are both looking forward to church services and perhaps a trip to our favorite Irish restaurant for some Guinness stew! Warms the cockles of your heart, for sure!!!
I will have to tackle the house cleaning after that -- but the silver lining will be the glistening surfaces and the fresh smells that greet me when it is done!!!
Have a blessed Sunday, my Spark friends! I never tire of saying
for your unwaivering support and encouragement during the trials of my life!
Oh and just a little more joy to pass on....
Patrick wearing the shirt this Grammy sent him!
Brady with one of his Easter baskets
and my favorite:
Patrick "helping" his Mommy with the laundry!!!