Sunday, April 07, 2013
First, in this action step, SparkCoach asks that we fast forward to ten years in the future.
10 years in the future
It is 2023 and I am 47 years old. I still live in Auburn, WA in the apartment with my significant other, and no, we still are not married. We continue to be committed to each other solely however.
My parents having given up driving every day out to Auburn, and we have saved up and procured a car. We have given in and gotten either a tablet or a device that only plays DVD's to entertain us between appointments. Roger and I both have new casemanagers that we actually like and respect.
We share a home with a shelter puppy (actually more likely, a senior dog, due to my preferences) that we went out to purchase after a period of mourning passed for our current dog, Mickey. He or she likes our sedate life and going out for walks with us in the park nearby.
We have invested in more kitchen equipment and have a working blender, full size food processor, and coffee grinder (for grinding spices). We cook the majority of our meals now, from scratch or with minimal processed ingredients (like processed cream of/chicken/celery/mushroom soups). We keep a few frozen meals on hand in case we don't have time to cook a certain night and still keep our schedule of going to bed early.
Holly has passed away due to her progressive illness, so I no longer have that to go to in the evening on Sundays, but I attend Holy Family in the morning and cherish my evenings for a deeper devotional time by myself in bible study and reflection.
I no longer get to see most of my Bible Study friends most of the time, but I stay in contact with them online and over the phone. I still order Avon from Bonnie, ,or from someone she has referred me to after she no longer sells it. I attend weight watchers and have made the majority of my friends and acquaintances from there. I attend at least once a week, sometimes multiple times. I am a lifetime member and have maintained my maintenance weight for a minimum of six years.
I volunteer at 2 places each week, part-time for about 4 hours a shift. These places are in Auburn and are easy to get to. The rest of the time I spend at home, in meetings, or at the gym. In downtime I believe in keeping myself vibrant. I follow a reading schedule for myself that I develop myself, in the interest of expanding my knowledge and vocabulary. I follow a varied exercise routine that includes strength and flexibility as well as cardio. I enjoy taking photos and updating my SparkPage and Facebook with the results.
When I open my eyes in the morning I feel it is a day rife with possibilities. I instantly think of all the things I am going to do and accomplish that day. I instantly make my way to the kitchen for 4oz of juice mixed with 1/2 c to 1 c of water and either eggs or a high fiber cereal to start my day. After my workout I reward myself with coffee or an espresso. I renew my fragrance of choice, and alternate between at least two (one day one, next day other) so I don't get too used to the smell and drench myself with it. I hear Roger snoring as I finish up on the balance board and get my coffee and I snuggle down with our senior pup to watch an old rerun of a Joyce Meyer TV podcast to start my day right.
We go to volunteer and to appointments and to see my parents on holidays and birthdays by car, that Roger drives. We actively visit friends and acquaintances, at least once a month for each one friend. My parents do a lot of traveling and we like to get together with them when they return to see pictures. We live a simple life, intentionally. We don't do a lot of traveling or go many places far away.
We do, however, take breaks from the modern world and go hiking/camping with our phones and ipods turned off. We enjoy reconnecting with nature.. big trees, big rocks, rivers, lakes.. We can't be gone for long, due to the area we live in and the constraints of our medical obligations, but we go enough to reset each year. We have a car and participate in Volksmarches (organized walks) across Washington State.
In how I move my body, I am very much more co-ordinated, hand and foot, than I have ever been. I bellydance and shimmy, I enjoy step-aerobics, I've even branched into kickboxing after an initial period of trepidation since our apartment is so small. I take classes at the gym or pop in DVD's at home. I am partial to DVD's or download because of the transitory nature of streaming. I like to KNOW if I like a routine that it will be available as part of my routines indefinitely and not just till the next software update, rotation, or until the streaming provider loses the license to show it.
For strength I use machines at the gym and my XMark Adjustable Weights that I invested in even before I reached my goal weight. They are showing their age, but still usable. I use handweights and wrist weights to up my cardio routines now and make them more challenging. I am working on pull ups. I can already do regular pushups and hold a plank several minutes. I can bench 100 pounds easily at the gym. My body responds to the movement I do by getting stronger.
I am just diabetic. I held it off for several years by eating healthy and exercising, but my genetic makeup and early predisposition has caught up with me. Rather than view it as a death sentence I take my diet and medication seriously and work to minimize its effect on my body. My outlook is bright and my triglycerides, cholesterol, and iron levels are all in line. Although I have become diabetic, I consider myself to be healthier than I was when I started my program in 2013. I enjoy each life to the fullest and look forward to each new day.
When I look in the mirror I see myself significantly grayer and with pronounced wrinkling. It upsets me a little bit because I don't feel so old and because I wish I'd started things sooner, before the fat meant that weight loss would make my skin so loose. But I also see it as a sign of progress. I reached this age! I attempted suicide and there were so many times I might not have made it, and I got here! Also, the skin is loose because I DID LOSE THE WEIGHT! I am able to be a healthier me and live longer because I'm no longer so heavy. Plus I look better because I'm letting myself wear makeup again, because once again I care about my appearance. I have a low maintenance haircut that I update at least once every two months, so it dosn't look scraggly ever again. I'm taking care of my teeth, using whitening toothpaste, and have given up diet colas and diet dr pepper in favor or water, one cup of coffee in the morning, and the occasional cup of tea each day, so my teeth are less yellow, even though Roger won't let me repeat a tooth whitening regimen I did 10 years ago, for fear it rots my enamel right out of my head.
When I look below my collarbones, I look skinny but curved. I have muscles, and they show. Not like bodybuilder muscles, but giving definition to my form. I work on abs religiously, but am not able to see them due to excess skin. I wear one piece swim suits that have skirts on them or with skirt cover ups attached to help the skin problem. Most of the time its not visible under my clothes. I've made peace with the fact that I am now a B cup rather than a C or maybe a barely B. My chest size still makes finding a bra difficult. I enjoy not bouncing around everywhere, not needing underwires, and being able to find sportsbras that will work for me.
I make sure my clothing fits. I am not as swayed by ideas of quality and permanence as some, because I know I get tired of wearing things eventually. I spend money on my foundation garments and mainly wear t-shirts and jeans, except to church and family functions. I've gotten my ears re-pierced and am sporting one set of earrings in my ears at all times, so that I never have to re-pierce them and spend that money, again. I like studs and drops and small hoops. I like pearls and cubic zirconia, sometimes together. I like sterling silver and silvertone (as long as it doesn't have nickel or anything that will turn my skin green)
What brings me the most joy on this day is, fellowshipping with my friends and writing with my Bible Study friends, seeing my other half sleep and playing his video games, petting my dog, and taking care of my body.
Each night I put my head to my pillow I feel tired. Physically tired, mentally grateful for the pillow and grateful for another day I got to spend on the planet. Tomorrow I plan to do it all again. This is my ideal life -- to live with my significant other, near my parents, until we are old and gray and the Lord takes us away.