Saturday, April 06, 2013
I write a lot about perspective and balance here, so it seems appropriate that I take a moment and genuinely reflect on my last 3 months here on SP. I really feel like I am making changes that are not only improving my health and quality of life, but are manageable and long-term. I'm obviously seeing a difference in numbers (weight, measurements, etc...) and I am continuing progress on how I handle stress. It's nice to view food as a part of life and not an extension of my emotions.
Onto my perspective point. We certainly don't see what we're doing to our bodies immediately when gaining weight. We all have "that moment" when you look in the mirror or at a picture and think, "wow. I've let myself go." I had that realization at Christmas time with this photo:
It took a month for me to put it up on SP, partially because I prefer being anonymous and partially because I can't stand this photo, but alas how can I appreciate my accomplishments if I can't stare the starting line down?
I'm happy to show you my Easter picture, three months into my weight & stress loss journey (the adorable child is my niece). It's not an ideal shot, but I'm smiling (without any liquor involved), having hosted a delightful, all natural and whole food based Easter brunch, something my in-laws needed talking into. My clothes haven't felt big yet (because I live in yoga pants and sports bras, really), but I feel like this holiday photo is something to embrace rather than have the urge to burn:
I am 35 lbs. down from my starting weight. My BMI is still in the obese range, but I am taking my accomplishments in manageable strides that allow me to feel proud and happy, even when I'm freaking out in the moment. Taking the time to reflect on progress, whether visual, in measurements, or just emotionally can really open up a sense of pride - and that's something I haven't felt in a long time.