Friday, April 05, 2013
I've just noticed that most of my blogs I've posted are from when I've reached out for advice or talked out of frustration, so I'm going to try and tie some positivity into them from now on as well.
So...for the frustration portion of our show today:
Some of you may recall my rants about my friend Kate who I had a falling out with and just got back in touch with...and how she lost over 100 pounds while we weren't friends...well, it's been a real struggle for me to try and rekindle our friendship. A part of me first thought that it was competitive nature that was getting in the way of us becoming friends again because it was so easy to compare myself to her...same age, same likes, both married, etc. BUT one big difference--the weight issue.
She's really different since she became a size 6...and not the same considerate person I used to know. I'm glad she's healthier and happy, but she's become obsessed with her weightloss and story; she has made a short autobiography about herself and has submitted it to several places like an online fitness website, The Biggest Loser and local news companies. And this is ALL SHE TALKS ABOUT! I'm not even sure if she does anything but work out and talk about it anymore. She's also considering becoming involved professionally in health and fitness (which is what I went to school for and what I'm also incorporating in my nursing career), which is great...except she constantly tries to give me unwanted advice about losing weight and what to eat--and based on my education, she seriously needs to reevaluate a few things. She may have lost a lot of weight, but she sure isn't 100% healthy.
I'm almost embarrassed to talk about this on my blog, but it's really been eating at me for a while. Do I just stop communicating with her or how do I deal with it? I'd like to stay friends with her, but I'm afraid that if I approach her with how I feel, she'll secretly hate me. Has anyone else gone through something like this or have known someone who's acted this way after a huge weight loss?
On the positive side, I'm using this experience to help me stay motivated; I try and do my own research on health and really visualize the day where I'm so fit and healthy that Kate won't feel the need to give me suggestions when I don't ask for them. That's positive, right?
Haha, but seriously--I really do visualize the day I will be strong enough to play soccer with college guy friends again and wear a bikini. I want to walk without feeling things jiggle and wear nice jeans that fit without creating a muffin top. Visualization has really been helping me stick with working out every day. This is probably going to sound funny, but I also look at my body in a full-length mirror and think about the way it will be changing this year. I try and surround myself with inpiration too like pictures, quotes, good food and I bought clothing articles that I would eventually like to fit into that I've hung up to look at. I WILL get there and I can't wait.
Last thought: I'm so thankful that this site exists and there are so many of you that I can look up to. Thank you all for being there for me and everyone else in one way or another!