Friday, April 05, 2013
My brain is foggy. I'm constantly loosing my train of thought. Many times an hour. I'll be thinking something, open my mouth to say something about it, and all that comes out is "Um". The thought is so far gone. I honestly have no idea why I opened my mouth at that point. Seriously. It's taken me two days of this happening over and over before I even knew it was happening. Hubby had to point it out.
I'm crying all the time. I was driving home yesterday, and was suddenly overwhelmed and cried for 5 minutes before I started to wonder why I was crying so hard. Today on my run, I cried from just before my warm up was done, right up until I got home again. I only went a mile. It was too cold to be out there crying and trying to run.
And I'm angry. I'm not joking about wanting to rip someones arm off and beat them with it. For no particular reason either.
It's honestly getting ridiculous. I went out and got some Midol. I have no idea if it's anything more than a glorified pain killer. I am not in physical pain. But I'm hoping it'll help take the edge off of this. At least for a day or so.
I hate using pills to solve these problems. I have an email out to a good friend of mine who is big into natural healing. She's going to look into something natural that can help with this. In the meantime, I need to do SOMETHING. This is just too much
So this is affecting how I did today overall - I'll do my review of my day in my Today blog later. However, this is so rough. I need to be a little understanding and caring. I'm the only one who's going to take care of me, so I'd better do it. I tried to push today. I couldn't do it. So I did my best. That is that.
I also emailed my 5% group and told them I could not weigh in this week. I honestly think seeing no change on the scale would be too much for me to deal with right now. Especially since I'm believing I just might be making progress. I'll write more about that in my Today blog also.
I hope everyone out there is having a great Friday. It's the last time you'll ever have THIS moment in time, so make the most of it.