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Scared

Friday, April 05, 2013

Tomorrow is the big 15k. I haven't ran since I hurt my foot during the 10k. I'm determined to finish the 9 miles just worried on how I will feel or if it'll scare me away from the 13 miles next month. I keep telling myself that I did 6 miles, what is 3 more. 3 more for me is 3 miles further than I have ever gone. I am trying to think positive. I am trying to mentally prepare myself. I am scared s*less. I can't describe the absolute panic I'm feeling looking at the course map. I can not put into words the absolute fear I have of getting to a certain point and quitting. I don't want to quit, but if I'm honest, if I'm talking of then I'm thinking it. I am taking my husband with me tomorrow. It is completely selfish, but I am doing it to ensure I do not quit. I am afraid that even he won't be enough.
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JMANDA86 4/7/2013 4:27PM

    Are you doing the Indy mini? I'm guessing you are since I know star girl is and she said she saw you at a series run. I did it in 2010 and 11 and am doing it again this year. You will be fine. You're training more than I ever have (good for you, bad for me). There are soooo many people encouraging you that are running and along the sides; the extra 4 miles will be nothing now that you've done 9. Slow and steady is just fine. Stay to the inside of the track, take the Gatorade at some stations, and know that the part right after the track seems long and boring but then you see the bridge and are so close to the finish and all of the people yelling for you!
You don't have to be a superstar. So many people of different running abilities do this race, you have nothing to worry about. There will be people much slower than you just plugging along.

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A-DAY-AT-A-TIME 4/6/2013 7:12PM

  I'm so proud of you!!! I knew you could do it!!! You are such an athlete!!! You go girl!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LONGANDSLOW225 4/5/2013 9:37PM

    I am the only one putting pressure on me. But in a way so is my husband. My fear with quitting is not just the quitting part. If I don't complete it by quitting, or if I go to slow, I know my husband and he will have have a lot to say and I really do not want to disappoint him. I know he is proud of me and what I'm doing. I also know he does not understand my paralyzing fear over it. *sigh*

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A-DAY-AT-A-TIME 4/5/2013 8:53PM

  You got this!!! Unless you are running to beat a certain time, take it easy breezy. Try not to think about the 3 extra miles until you get to them and then take it one mile at a time. I could be wrong but it sounds like you are the only one putting pressure on yourself. Take a deep breath before the race, clear your mind and pretend your Michael Jordan and Just Do It!!! Nothing to it but to do it!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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