Friday, April 05, 2013
Happy Friday SparkFriends! I had an unusual but good meeting with my advisor yesterday so I am feeling optimistic, motivated and hopeful today.
I've had an up-and-down week (messed up Monday and Wednesday), and have gotten miserably behind on any kind of tracking of skills, gratitudes, etc. but at least things are ok at this moment.
+ I had a good dinner with a friend I haven't seen since the muddy rainy race in December. We had a great time catching up. I definitely overate and afterwards had an urge to binge, but I fought it and drove straight home instead of going to the market.
+ I had that good meeting with my advisor. There's also a weekly seminar starting up and I am going to take part in it, which means not only just attending, but keeping up enough to present one of the lectures. We haven't chosen them yet and presenting is a huge anxiety-inducer for me, but I know it's good that I do it. My stress levels are going to go up but the payoff is the extra motivation and inspiration I get from getting more involved in my field.
+ I am finally doing some leisure reading, even if it's irresponsible because I have so much work to do. One of my childhood neighbors wrote a book about his experiences in the army and seeing (a lot) of combat in Iraq...it's somehow more fascinating to read a non-fiction book like this when you actually know the person. In any case I am glad I'm allowing myself to do some reading that isn't for school.
+ It stressed the hell out of me, but I'm dealing with having to turn down my first internship offer. My former boss wants to recruit me to the company he moved to, and at first I thought it might be a good idea, but after some more consideration I think I would be better off where I am presently. It is so so awkward and stressful to me to say no, but in any case I am going to do it. I am facing small challenges like these and not automatically bingeing from the discomfort.
+ I have done well with connecting with various friends. I e-mailed an old running buddy just to say hi the other day, and also got in touch with an old intensive outpatient program friend since I saw from her online status that she was going to Russia for a vacation (I went to Russia years ago to study language for 5 weeks and have always wanted to go back). I still don't consider myself a "social" person, but I have really been appreciating the connections I've made. I am so lucky to know so many nice and interesting people (that includes my friends here).
+ Random! I want to learn more about orienteering.