Friday, April 05, 2013
moral of my extremely long post...KEEP GOING!! It will be hard, you will have setbacks, you will get stuck, but you will over come them.....read on if you wan't :P
Wow!! I have not been able to say that in my adult life,..."I am not Obese". I've been obese since I was 18 years old. Obese for me is 171 pounds or higher (according to BMI charts). I know those aren't completely accurate, but they are still a good indicator. I was sooo excited on Wednesday when I weighed myself and I was 170.6! I wasn't obese!! But I didn't trust it not to be some strange fluctuation, so I weighed myself again yesterday...169.6!!! Then today I weighed myself...168.8!!! I think It's safe to say I am no longer obese, and not borderline not obese, just not obese!!
I still think I'm fat, and I am in comparison to what I could be, what i WILL be...but man that felt amazing!! It still does actually. I never believed this was possible for me. I knew it was physically possible, but mentally....that was the biggest problem. I couldn't stick with my motivation. This time isn't exactly easy either. I had a VERY bad week. After my last post of feeling like I was failing, I spiralled. I still went to the gym, but my workouts were slack. I ate whatever I wanted, and as much of it as I wanted on Friday, sat, sunday, monday. So you can probably imagine my surprise when the scale said I lost weight on wednesday. I'm not promoting eating unhealthily AT ALL. I now have to shrink my stomach again, and work on eating less because I'm still eating a lot. That's the hard part for me.
I went through 5 days where I was soo upset because I couldn't get below 171, and I felt like I was going to be obese forever. Then, Tuesday night...I drank water for the first time in 5 days!!! And guess what? Alll that water weight I had been holding on to...the reason the scale was fluctuating soo much....it alll went away. Granted I was up every few hours to pee, but it was worth it.
I even motivated my sister to start getting healthy. She's just starting, and she has to start slower than I because she's 100 pounds heavier and hasn't worked out in a LONG LONG time, but she's doing it and I am soo proud of her. Yesterday she walked 2/3 of university hill. That's not an easy walk. She stopped a few times, but she did it, and that's all that matters. All that matters is she's moving, she's trying. That inspires me to keep going and keep going harder. She doesn't know that, and if she sticks with it I will tell her before I leave for work for the summer.