Friday, April 05, 2013
I am definitely in a good place right now. A very good place. :-) As many of you know, my biggest obstacle in my life recently has been my DH's periodic drug use. Since the last big blowout, we have been writing (separately) into a shared journal. This was his idea and he has stuck with it for 30 days now. I am so proud of him. I know there has been some trying times for him, but he has came out on top. I'm not naive enough to think that a "relapse" can't or won't happen. I've been around the block a time or two to know this is a definite possibility. However, right now my heart is bursting with pride for him. And we will deal with whatever comes when necessary.
I have continued the Love Dare Challenge also. It has taken me more than the 40 Days because sometimes it just wasn't in the cards to do a particular "dare" that day. Maybe a situation didn't present itself that day or whatever. But, I'm still plugging away at it. I have learned sooooooo much about love, patience and sacrifice. It truly is a difficult thing to love someone unconditionally. What a tough concept.
We have continued to be involved in our church and attend Mass every Sunday. Be has been very accepting of this too. He even went to the Easter Vigil last Saturday night and wants to make that a tradition. :-) I pray for him (and ME) everyday. I pray that his heart is opened up to God and he allows Him to lead him. I pray that God shows me how to truly love Be through all of our obstacles.
Funny. I never thought of myself as "religious" but I sure am learning a lot from the Big Guy! :-) It's awesome and makes me happy!
We are so blessed to have 2 amazing children! They definitely try our patience some days, but wouldn't' trade them for the world! :-) We make such an awesome little family! We spend a lot of time doing things with them and *for* them. *sigh* Sometimes it's exhausting, but it's memories that we're making and those are priceless! I am so thankful that Be adopted my son. I am forever grateful. Be changed that little boy's life that's for sure. As he's 15 now, he's not so little, but I know how much he loves Be and it is heartwarming to watch them together. It's the only Dad my son has known. Admittedly, sometimes we both forget that Be wasn't his biological father.
Be's family is few and far between. Both of his parents are deceased and as a result there has been turmoil between the siblings. We do not speak to his sister at all. She is an extremely negative force that we do not welcome into our lives. His brother lives just a couple of blocks from us. As we do see and talk to him from time to time, he has his own battle with addiction to deal with. It's sad really to think about how his family has fallen apart. But, this just means Be needs me and our kids even more. We are his rock. I will always be by his side, no matter what. I love him too much to give up on him.
As far as my weight loss..... I have currently lost just over 80lbs in about a year and a half. I am proud of all of my accomplishments. So much has changed with me. Good things. My weight still is like a roller coaster, but the ultimate direction is downward, so I'll keep plugging away at it. I just turned 40 a couple of weeks ago and am probably in the best shape of my life. That makes me HAPPY! I still have a ways to go, but it's a work in progress. I am loving seeing the changes in my body that lifting weights brings!
Sore muscles=one happy Momma! :-)
Just felt in the mood to share my love of life right now. I hope all of my Spark friends are finding themselves in GOOD PLACES also!
Love to all of you!