(Just like yesterday, you might want to read this entry here to get all of the links - wheatontrial.wordpress.c
- I'll continue to post in both, I just like the way I can organize things in wordpress a little bit better)
A tickle in my throat from yesterday turned into a full blown sore throat today. It woke me up at about 5 this morning and I couldn’t fall back asleep. Hurts to talk. Also hurts to eat, so I’m fairly confident I’ll make it through another binge free day pretty easily.
Last night, I was supposed to get a 4 mile run in per my training plan. I have had difficulty running since my long run last Saturday – here’s how my week has looked exercise-wise:
Sunday: Bodyworks at LA Fitness (Usually, I follow this with Yoga, but Yoga was cancelled for Easter)
Tuesday: Supposed to do a 4 mile run. Knee pain within first five minutes. Switched to elliptical.
Wednesday: Personal Training. Immediately went to Roadrunner Sports after training to buy a pair of Saucony Hurricanes. I never had any knee/foot pain with these shoes when I used them last year for my half-marathon training. I did get blisters, which I was informed could be solved with a different size – but I figured I’d give a different pair of running shoes a try (Brooks Adrenaline). I’m wondering if it’s the shoes that are the source of my problems. The only concern I have is that they have upgraded the Saucony Hurricane since I last used them, so I don’t know if the change in shoe design will help or hurt me.
Thursday: Tried out my new shoes on the treadmill. Still had knee pain, so tried to run outside. Made it three minutes and could go no further.
Friday: Apply lots of ice. Hope to get my 4 miles done tonight. Cry if it doesn’t work out.
Hoping these magical shoes will make me pain free again.
At work yesterday, I received some “constructive criticism” from my supervisor regarding a meeting I had participated in on Tuesday. I am terrible with any type of negative feedback to begin with – it gets my anxiety going in full gear. But what really made it traumatic for me was that my supervisor wasn’t even at the Tuesday meeting. Someone felt it important enough to tell her separately that I needed some coaching on my public speaking skills.
My supervisor delivered the criticism gently enough, but it didn’t matter – it sent my distorted thinking into rapid-fire. We also had the discussion right before lunch, giving me a prime opportunity for me to bury my anxiety in a cup of chocolate-flavored chocolate. (Sadly, the official arrival of Spring did not banish the hot chocolate bar as I thought it might. Perhaps because it’s still freakin cold outside).
I didn’t turn to sugar, though. Instead, I used a tactic my therapist has shared with me – the “Two P’s.” I did something Pleasant (practiced Spanish for 5 minutes using the Duolingo App) and then something Productive (made an important phone call to a co-worker about upcoming projects). I then scanned the company cafeteria, and passed over the hot chocolate bar for a less caloric cup of decaf coffee instead, and I stuck with my eating plan for the rest of the day.
Linked In gave me this article today, which I thought was relevant:
15 Things Successful People Do ( www.linkedin.com/today/p
The first thing on the list? Fail. Successful people use their failures as learning opportunities. I have definitely had my fair share of exposure to this in trying to be wheat free and binge free. But am I applying the lessons learned to continue my current streak? I need to be more diligent about it.
Track Progress – This used to be a problem for me, but I have found ways to make it more fun and interesting for myself. The SparkPeople nutrition tracker. This blog. Keeping count of my wheat free, binge free streaks.
Also, Display Realistic Optimism – I DO believe I can be binge free. I’m not letting setbacks bother me the way they used to. I know my knee will heal and I will be able to run like I used to.
Overall, a tough ending to the week. But I’ll eliminate the negative and focus on the positive – I still have a good streak going, I handled criticism better than I have in the past, and I get to try out some cool new sneakers.