Friday, April 05, 2013
Yesterday I slipped and had my first binge in a month. I think it was due to a mash up of emotions. I was still feeling slightly angry about my weight having had gone back up despite all my great efforts. While still recovering from my feelings of disappointment . I received a phone call yesterday from a loved one who started to question my marriage. They said that no-one in the family could understand why my husband married me. Basically coincides & connects with my past and many more negative based messages I heard while growing up. I don't know how to feel about my slip up. I have been sifting through thoughts & emotions over the past several hours. Trying to remain positive & optimistic. But right now I feel slightly stuck. I know that today is a Fresh Start/New Beginning. I know that I want to continue on my personal healing and transformational journey. I will continue to show myself & others respect, compassion, understanding, kindness, and love. I know that eventually I will overcome my Eating Disorder. I Can.