2 Years Since My Last Confession
Thursday, April 04, 2013
I cannot believe I haven't blogged in so long. That's about how long I've been off track. I just wanted to check in because I am back on track and that last post was so depressing I thought I should assure any random person who may read this that I didn't off myself or anything...
I reached an all-time high weight of 319 this year. That was what I weighed in at on New Year's anyway. Maybe it got higher at some point, I'm not sure. I've lost 17 lbs. since then, hardly anything to write home about for 4 months time, but it's a loss none-the-less. I've fully adjusted to life in Mexico and have been spending the last couple of years writing and finding my voice and obviously eating to much crap.
My weight has gotten to a point where it's affecting my life in ways that it never had before. I'm too fat to sit in camping chairs, my blood pressure is high, I've developed plantar fasciitis, I'm physically dependent on alcohol and the seatbelt in my car barely fits. Basically, sh*t has hit the fan. Last week I finally realized that if I don't do something about this now, I'm going to die. So here I am.
A long time online friend who has turned her health around since I met her years ago is now a Beachbody Coach. She added me into her Facebook challenge group and convinced me to dust off my Turbo Jam DVD's. She probably saved my life. I'm on Day 4 of exercise and sobriety and I feel really, really good. The biggest development has been for me to work out in the morning, which for some reason never occurred to me before. I feel like that is going to be the small difference this time that will lead to success. My workout is done before my body even has a chance to realize what it's doing. Then I feel so amazing and accomplished all day that I am motivated to eat right. And then I come home from work with no desire to drink because I know if I wake up hung over I won't be able to get my work out in. It's a wonderful contradiction to the life of excuses I've been living.
I'm back baby.