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A Little Discouraged Today :(

Thursday, April 04, 2013

Well I've been trying hard all week and I'm not feeling much of a difference. I lost 2.9 lbs last week and I'm hoping for at least another lose. I definitely don't want to see a gain. I've been eating fruit when hungry at night and eating healthy meals during the day. I deserve a loss that's for sure. It's just lately I feel that I'm not benefiting the last three months of dieting and I'm not getting anywhere. I've been putting in most of my effort these last 3-4 weeks. I took a few photos of myself in my new bikini tonight to see if theres a difference in my photos from when I began back in January and I don't see much of a difference. I still feel that I look disgusting. I know i'm discouraged right now but I won't give up. The end result feels to good. It's just so hard to keep going when I feel this way. Hungry and craving the bad stuff but making the healthy decisions all the same and still not having any big losses. I skipped the gym tonight too because I just wanted a night off from coming home sweaty. I just wanted a night to reflect.
I think me and my boyfriend are heading to our hometown tomorrow which is a 9 hour drive from where we are living. If our trip goes ahead I plan on packing a healthy meal of a garden salad and fruit for the drive. My mother also likes to go for a walk in the evenings so hopefully I will get to go on one or two of those between now and tuesday when I get back in town. I No matter what i do not want to go home for the weekend and splurge. I don't want to sabotage any progress I have made so far. Well tomorrow is weigh day and I will keep you posted on how I do. Wish me luck Sparkers!
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AMBERGARNET 4/8/2013 11:08AM

  Thank you for the encouragement everyone :) It really means a lot. You're both so totally right. I need to be proud of the little things I accomplish and take my time, there's no rushing to this. I'd rather to ever so slowly lose than to gain gradually. Thank you :)

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ON2VICTORY 4/6/2013 2:30AM

    I'm a guy so I can't say that I relate but you know, feelings are universal. I cannot tell you the number of times I have looked in the mirror and felt the self loathing. It is so difficult to keep a poor self image from marring how awesome and unique we really are.

It has taken literally years to slowly change my self image and it was not easy. The best thing for you is to love yourself for the unique and gifted person that you are and treat yourself accordingly. You are far greater than a number,

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AUNTIEANNE22 4/5/2013 10:02AM

  It's hard not to get down on yourself, but this is a long journey. you didn't put the weight on overnight and it won't come off overnight. Are your everyday clothes fitting better? That is the real measure. The number on the scale measures mass not volume. If you are taking up less space because you are developing muscle, than you are on the right track.

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