Thursday, April 04, 2013
Well I've been trying hard all week and I'm not feeling much of a difference. I lost 2.9 lbs last week and I'm hoping for at least another lose. I definitely don't want to see a gain. I've been eating fruit when hungry at night and eating healthy meals during the day. I deserve a loss that's for sure. It's just lately I feel that I'm not benefiting the last three months of dieting and I'm not getting anywhere. I've been putting in most of my effort these last 3-4 weeks. I took a few photos of myself in my new bikini tonight to see if theres a difference in my photos from when I began back in January and I don't see much of a difference. I still feel that I look disgusting. I know i'm discouraged right now but I won't give up. The end result feels to good. It's just so hard to keep going when I feel this way. Hungry and craving the bad stuff but making the healthy decisions all the same and still not having any big losses. I skipped the gym tonight too because I just wanted a night off from coming home sweaty. I just wanted a night to reflect.
I think me and my boyfriend are heading to our hometown tomorrow which is a 9 hour drive from where we are living. If our trip goes ahead I plan on packing a healthy meal of a garden salad and fruit for the drive. My mother also likes to go for a walk in the evenings so hopefully I will get to go on one or two of those between now and tuesday when I get back in town. I No matter what i do not want to go home for the weekend and splurge. I don't want to sabotage any progress I have made so far. Well tomorrow is weigh day and I will keep you posted on how I do. Wish me luck Sparkers!