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Thursday, April 04, 2013

This week, as I've struggled to balance my college class schedule and 3(!) internships while maintaining my commitments to my sorority, boyfriend, family, and tennis partner (we signed up for a tournament next weekend!) I have realized that I may be in slightly over my head. I am a "doer" and usually get energy from being involved... but at this point I feel like my brain is constantly going through what commitments I might be forgetting about! Thank god for planners. This got me to thinking about what my priorities and values are and how they are being expressed every single day.
My natural inclination has been to put my health on the back burner... While I am not doing horrible by any means I have only been maintaining. For (4) weeks. Literally. I am continually frustrated by my inability to kick my butt back into gear. My next appointment with my nutritionist is in 2 weeks and I am absolutely dreading it.
My rut is unlike many that I have ever been in. For one thing, I am not completely out of control. That is usually the case when I "fall off the wagon." I feel positive and happy (and okay, really tired!!) I always used make a dramatic nutrition mistake and spiral out of control. But this? This is more like a consistent ambivalence and lack of focus that I can't seem to shake.
To be honest, I have no idea what to do. Unfortunately, none of my commitments are ones that I can just quit a month before school ends. I do recognize that I am starting avoidance behaviors... I know how to correct my past "all or nothing" mindset but I have not found any way to deal with this yet. Right now I am just taking it one meal at a time and I'm trying to juggle everything in my life without dropping the ball.
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    Agree with what was said here and esp. CHARTHESTAR: Maintaining is NOT a backwards step- so Kudos for that!

    WHen you reach your goal weight, you will need to maintain it so consider this practice maintaining while under stress.

    Never a bad thing to get practice with since...stress happens!!

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    1807 days ago
  • BAM19602
    I would encourage you to focus on your health. Without that, you will not be able to do the things you really want to. You have a lot going on so chose what is really important to you and go with it. For now maybe just focus on either diet or exercise if that is all you can do for now. Don't give up completely.
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    1808 days ago
    some really great comments here for you to think over

    Have a great day
    1808 days ago
    Maintaining is NOT a backwards step- so Kudos for that!
    I had a lot on my plate my last couple of semesters at school. Sometimes you have to say no. you can only juggle so long before something has got to give. You have to take care of you so you can take care of everything and everyone else. Remember that!

    My last month in class I put myself first- and was better for it. I had told my teacher that was what I was doing. She was impressed and told me that she wanted- Needed- to do that to. I had a 10 page paper to write- I made myself do my walk.

    You just have to remember- This is the only body you have and you have to give it consideration if it is going to carry you as far as you want to go.
    1809 days ago
    Unfortunately I think you have taken on toooo much! Plus the fact that you are committed to others, try to maintain until you can get past this point. then in the future take on 1/2 of what you think you can do! However you sound strong, so hang in there!
    1809 days ago
    You do have a full plate. It takes time to exercise, plan meals, prepare food, shop, etc. I am sure you will be a bit more "on plan" when your schedule eases a bit. Hang in there!
    1809 days ago
  • DARJR50
    You need to cut a slice of "me" time for yourself. Stress is not good for you.
    1809 days ago
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