As most of you know by now, I have turned my life around from a very unhealthy, unnatural way of living. I was once a chain-smoking, fast food eating, sedentary, prescription pill-filled mess. Just over a year ago, my life took a serious turn and I have become an extreme naturalist. I believe in the mind and body working together with God to heal ailments. I believe that our bodies were divinely made to function with just what was given to us on this Earth. This is a very extreme line of thought, but I have seen it work for me, and I continue to make small changes in this direction. Nope, I'm not perfectly natural all the time. I still enjoy a coke once in a while (even though it never helped anyone lose a pound ever). I do still get busy and swing by for a fast food meal on the go from time to time. I still have my lazy days and I still take a tylenol from time to time when I have a headache. But, I will say, I have changed. I feel confident in my changes and comfortable in my own skin. I no longer sit and worry that I will die from the cursed heart disease and stroke that seems to plague my family. Could I still be genetically disposed to these diseases? Of course! But, I feel confident that by changing now, I'm possibly decreasing these health risks and adding valuable years to my life.
I make this statement first to let each of you know where I stand. I certainly do not wish to offend anyone here on spark with my personal decisions, and I want it to be known that I an open-minded person. Open-mindedness, however is what has led me to my most current big decision. I hesitated for a while to post anything about it here because I have seen friends (and myself) receive lashings on facebook for statements/decisions they have announced there. This is why I no longer possess a facebook account. I do feel comfortable that my spark friends will support my decision. All this being said, I will let you know that I have made the choice and the switch to a midwife.
My DH and I have seen many friends fall victim to the convenience games/scare tactics the doctors of the U.S. play. In all reality, it's not truly ALL their fault. Much of the driving force is in the insurance companies who boss around the doctors here. The U.S. has the second highest fetal/maternal mortality rate in the world. I had already seen evidence in my own OB's office that still makes me shutter. My latest experience was having the nurse defensively tell me that I probably wouldn't be seeing the doctor because "she has been trying to deliver a baby for an entire 30 minutes and we think she's going to have to do an emergency c-section." 30 minutes? Seriously? Please, let me tell you the other part of this...the time was 4:30 pm.
I am not here to rant about how horrible doctors are. I don't believe they all are by any means--let's just say MY personal experiences have always been negative. I am here to say that after extensive research, watching "The Business of Being Born," much prayer, and lengthy discussions, my DH and I decided that a midwife was definitely our preferred choice for this birth. Our insurance will cover it just the same, and probably better because it is cheaper than a hospital birth. I will not be forced to take any unnatural drugs. I will still have a back-up doctor in the event of an emergency. I will get to have this baby in the comfort of my own home in my own time frame. My body will let me know the proper time and there will be no limitations. It is also likely that I will get to have a water birth, as this is a provision made by the midwife we have hired.
I feel so confident that this is the right decision for my baby, my body, and my husband too. She came to our house last night for the first time. We let our dogs stay in, despite my hesitation. One of them tends to have a bad attitude towards strangers. However, when she came in and sat down in my living room, Mr. Attitude jumped right in her lap, rested his head into her neck and literally hugged her!!! It was awfully sweet, but I have to admit that it made me feel comfortable. There is a long-standing belief in my family that the way an animal reacts to a person says much about their personal character. Both of my dogs fell in love with our midwife! She really is calm and sweet and has never once rushed us through. She is very knowledgeable and has been doing this for 30 years--she has never even missed one birth. Even better, out of the 3,000 births she has attended, only 12 women had to go to the hospital. So, I feel very good about this decision!
If you came along and read this monster blog, thank you!