Thursday, April 04, 2013
Recently I have been forced to reevaluate a friendship and the outcome isn't the best. This person used to be my best friend, the one I turned to when I unexpectedly fell pregnant and didn't know whatto do. We worked at the same place and did lunch every day and I would usually stop at hers for ccup pa before going home. We'd see each other on the weekends too. However since having my son 5 years ago I made a change I quit smoking. Also I left my job although we remained friends I began to realise it was on her terms. Me to go over to see her, she never came to me, always had an excuse..I don't drive, can't afford a taxi and so on. Now its my mum doesn't like cats and we can't leave dad alone due to his alhezimers. Thing is this girl spends more a year on holidays and smoking than I earn, she buys whatever she wants for herself and her daughter but tries to plead poverty yo me.
Last year all I got for my birthday was a text while she was on holiday, no card, flowers or anything
when she came back. Now this year when I was made redundant at the beginning if February I rang and told her. But since then I haven't heard from her.. Maybe its me but regardless if your own problems surely if you were a real friend you would want to be there for someone when they had such a nasty shock. I know her dads not well but its not terminal..so why does it feel that air should be supporting her and not her supporting me? I just feel that this is on her terms and she doesn't think about me at all..unless she needs an ear to bend. So real or fake? I know she has other friends ahe does stuff with, she mocks my fitness and diet plans. She is who I was but thats not me now..I enjoy exercise, running and not smoking. Her activity runs to a slow 10 minute walk to work and back and that's it. Maybe its time to let go of the past and move on..