Thursday, April 04, 2013
I've been struggling a lot with all the things I 'should' do.
I 'should' study Korean every day. I 'should' go to youth group every Saturday. I 'should' cook everyday. I 'should' exercise everyday. I 'should' read my Bible and pray everyday.
I don't know about everyone else, but I get a little overwhelmed with 'shoulds'. I try to do all of the 'shoulds' in life and just can't.
Even Sparkpeople sometimes tells you things you 'should' do: you 'should' vary your diet. You 'should' eat new foods. You 'should' eat only brown rice, etc.
Well, you know what, I don't like cucumbers, I don't like celery, I don't like lettuce or squash or burdock root, but I love tomatoes, and I love carrots. Not only do I love them, I eat them. If I buy squash or burdock or cucumbers or celery, I force myself to eat one serving out of pure obligation, then my will power and motivation are gone and they sit in my fridge and go bad. Tomatoes and carrots on the other hand, I can and literally do, eat them for lunch and dinner until they are gone (sometimes breakfast too).
You know something? That's good enough. Feeling guilt because I don't get other vegetables in my diet is misplaced. Eating should be something that is enjoyable, if you are eating something just because you 'should' then it isn't sustainable, and it isn't a benefit. Besides, as for the whole variety thing...I live in Korea. Everytime I eat with someone else I'm eating something new. Besides, mushrooms, spinach, broccoli and asparagus are veggies and I eat those occasionally too.
I've been a 'whole grain nut' for the past four years, only brown rice, only whole wheat bread, whole wheat tortillas, whole wheat bagels, you name it. Then I came to Korea, you literally cannot even find plain tortillas or bagels, let alone the whole grain varieties of them. So I buy omega-3 bread from the little bakery near my house, one slice is like 240 calories because it is ENORMOUS, but at least you can see little seeds in it....I'm not sure what kind of seeds they are, but gotta be better for you than just plain white bread, right? And you know what? I don't like brown rice! Unless it's seasoned, if it's cooked with something it's great, if it's got furikake, it's good. By itself it's nasty, and it tears up my gums when I eat it. It's not the cooking, I am doing everything right. I started out with the recommended amount of water, then added more, then added more, then added more, the stuff still turns out hard as a rock. The situation isn't helped at all by the fact that unlike Japan, Korea has like NO rice seasonings.
So I decided that it's not worth it. I'm going back to my sticky white rice.
I just realized, it could just be that my tastebuds have changed, they do that occasionally.
Then there's the stir fry thing. "Stir fries are so healthy! Full of vegetables! So easy to make!" I apologize to all, but I have never had a stir fry that I have found enjoyable.
My conclusion? I need to stop listening to some of the 'shoulds' in my life. Not all of them, but I need to separate out the ones that are actually 'musts', do those, and just forget about the other ones.