Thursday, April 04, 2013
I'm so frustrated with myself! I have everything at my disposal to get fit and lose weight, the only thing stopping me is myself. I want to say that I hate myself, but that wouldn't be true. I don't hate myself; I hate my habits and the way I do things. I can learn and study and write stuff and all that, but when it comes down to actually doing stuff, eating right and exercising, I never do.
I thought once I have a car, a set schedule, good grades and especially once I had a gym membership, I would go to the gym and be healthy. Boy, was I wrong! I have not been to the gym in months, despite having an active membership. When I first got my membership I went at least twice a week, just to keep consistent. And I remember just how much better I felt, how I felt like I was a whole me when I regularly exercised and ate healthy. Now? Everything is just kind've flat. I want to do things, but never have the time to do it. Heck, I don't even know what is happening to my paychecks. I can never seem to save any money, despite only having to pay for food and gas. No other bills. Filling up every six days does drain my bank account though.
Anyhow, back to the main subject. I'm frustrated that despite knowing pretty much EVERYTHING there is to know for me to lose weight, I still don't act. I have even have a particular interest in nutrition as a career for the future. That means I know MORE than the average person on nutrition, plus I have a degree in culinary management and experience in the field. I am also slowly working my way through several personal trainer texts (one of which will actually get me to having a certificate). My main point is: I am frustrated that I know so much, but so so little. I go to bed all gung-ho, and when I wake I just am like "Walk? Ha! I can do that later!"
P.S. I finally have my GPA high enough I am off of academic probation and hence can register for classes withOUT having to go to the academic advising (I'm still going since I have no idea what classes would be best for me to take right now).
NOTE: Send me a message when you read this asking if I have worked out yet.