Wednesday, April 03, 2013
Ever notice how we as individuals, people, we think in negatives? Not intentionally of course but some of us tend to live in the negative spectrum of our lives instead of our WHOLE lives for as negative things do happen so does positive things. Putting our focus on the good and not the bad isnt very easy for some, myself is included in that category. Growing up in a very, VERY negative home and a constant negative attitude put forth to me I can very easily come up with a million and one negative things about myself, but ask me to come up with something good, well thats a bit harder. Since our family therapy session on Saturday and the therapist's suggestion on "Name one good thing that happened today" I have been thinking......I NEED to have my own list of positives of the day, no matter how small they may seem, they are very important to point out and acknowledge.
Positive Thought of the day----My daughter is beautiful, therefore I MUST be beautiful
Positive feeling of the day---feeling the love from spending the day with my daughter, and her actually wanting to be with me.
Positive Color of the day---Today the color is pink, a rosy blush pink. The beautiful color of cheeks when one gets giddy with love
Positive Action of the day---My positive action of the day watching movies all day long with my daughter, watching her play Sims and showing interest in what she was doing, Baking Orange rolls with her today, since I haven't baked in ages AND enjoyed doing so.
Today was a good day. I have good friends here on SP that have been there and are helping me to understand Unconditional love. I have been trying and working to understand this over the last month or so since my therapist brought it up. I have found I GIVE unconditional love all the time, even when I have been hurt so many times I continue to open myself up to strangers I guess I am looking for acceptance because I have yet found someone other than my DH that will stick with me through everything. I dont understand unconditional love fully and I have yet to feel as though I am a deserving recipient of that love but I am moving forward which is all that I could ask for of myself.
Often when things are not as they seem to be, it is because we do not see the whole vision as we are asked to take baby steps.--Madysin Taylor