Wednesday, April 03, 2013
I am on my last day of cycle 1 and thankfully today was calmer. We were still on lockdown, as was daycare, but dismissal of students went as normal so that helped a lot. We had two inmates escape the county jail yesterday and they are still trying to find them. A bit scary to be honest.
I am going to start cycle 2 tomorrow. I will weigh in the morning and, if I have time, take my measurements. I don't know that I will have lost more weight since I last weighed on Tuesday but I want to have my starting weight for each cycle to see how much I shed on each cycle. I have learned a lot in cycle one and come a long ways in my opinion. It doesn't feel like it has been 17 days. They haven't been that hard either. The hardest thing was the lack of energy the first few days.
Things I have changed since starting the 17 dd and completing cycle one
....I haven't binge eaten since starting this eating plan.
....I don't want sweets.
....I don't need starchy carbs.
....It is ok to be hungry.
....I don't need snacks.
....I can eat healthy and filling snacks when I am truly hungry.
....Eliminating starchy carbs isn't near as hard as I imagined.
....Veggies should be filling up my plate.
....My portions were out of control before.
....Throwing away my broken down size 16s felt good.
....I feel better about myself because I know I am making healthier choices.
....and so much more.
I really have found hope in this diet plan. It is so realistic and honest. He says in the book, cycle 4, that you will always have to watch what you eat. You will never be able to go back to your old ways or get off this "diet" or way of eating. That is sad because, in all honesty, I did enjoy eating such yummy food endlessly, but it wasn't the best thing for me. It was comfort. However, I have 2 kids to think about. It's not just me. I need to be a good role model for them. I need to be healthy for them. I need to be here for them. I haven't been healthy in a long time. I actually feel like I have a chance on this plan. I can do it. And while I won't be able to revert back to eating as I did before, I can learn new things to find comfort in. It will take time to retrain myself in terms of portion size and healthy choices. Cycle one laid a good foundation. I know that it will take all 3 cycles and maybe another round to implant those habits into my foundation that I have created. I started this diet as a way to get into my matron of honor dress for my sister's wedding and it might have been the best thing that I could have done for myself. It might be the thing that helps me change. I won't know until I am done with it, but I really feel different for the first time in my life. It is up to me to keep this going though. The wedding is next week. I need to get cycle 2 down and figured out and stay on track, through the wedding, through the daily things that happen, and stay focused on what really matters and what I really want in the future.
I think I can. I think I can.
Just keep swimming!