Wednesday, April 03, 2013
Today, I am feeling a bit depressed. I cleaned off my elliptical trainer and started using it again. That's not what depresses me. I hope that using it will get my endorphins pumping, make my mood happier. As to why I am depressed... I am ALONE. My best friend is gone. I have no life partner, don't feel like looking for one at the weight I am, because being unhealthy physically going into a relationship is not a healthy way to start a relationship, if you understand what I am saying. If I don't like myself this way, I can't expect to be happy in a relationship, it will bring to much negativity. SO, I am depressed over that. Maybe it's spring blues... not winter, but spring blues... I think I will go and get on my elliptical now.