Wednesday, April 03, 2013
Isn't that what the Zymbalt commercial says? It's true. For the first time since dealing with depression, I am seeing how it hurts my loved ones. In the past weeks, I have been far from being easy to be around. I have been irritable meaning anything could set me off. I would pick fights with my boyfriend. Nothing could be done right. People started to not like me because of these actions.
Now that I am starting to come through the depression fog, I am trying to sort through the fight again. This time with a clearer mind. Depression makes everything extreme and perceptions are a bit off.
A long time ago, a member at the Y told me how he broke up with girl friend because she was bipolar. He said she was unstable in her life. I really hoped my significant other would understand. I don't think my boyfriends understands 100% but it makes me wonder if anyone would or could be able to. For the longest time, my parents didn't want me to go to counseling because it would be documented and it might be hard to attain a full time job.
Anyhow, my point is that it seems like it is harder to live a normal life. Today I got myself on meds and hope to have less extreme episodes in the future. But this episode sure gave me insight on my future.