Today in Spark Coach I was asked to ponder the question of WHY I want to lose this weight.
I have been on this weight loss journey for a long time and of course the standard answer to Why is to 'GET HEALTHY'.
YES, I want to do that too.
I AM DOING IT.
Having been fortunate enough to drop weight, inches and a ton of negativity in general, I have to readdress this question.
My health has improved greatly.
My insulin levels (being a type 1 diabetic) have dropped drastically. Over 70+% less insulin that I am taking today as compared with 2 years ago.
My Eye Pressures have dropped significantly, and although I will always be on drops for my Glaucoma, I no longer have to worry of damage being done. My pressures dropped from in the 30's to in the mid-teens.
I can walk. I can run. I can dance and jump.
I can do all of this with NO PAIN.
My attitude has had a serious adjustment.
Although I think of myself as always a happy person, that was not always true.
It was a mask I would wear for public eyes.
Well I can truly say that I no longer wear a mask.
I am truly a happy person.
I am also no longer afraid to show what emotions I do feel, whatever they may be.
This is because I feel I am no longer judged by my weight, but by who I am and what I do.
If I was still in the mindset of having kids, I believe my fertility troubles would also have dropped by the wayside by now. There was no known reason or cause, just the weight.
But if I did want and have them, I would finally have the energy to PLAY.
Of course looking at my son (almost 18), I missed out on a lot of Play time by having the weight issue.
Thankfully he is one of my biggest supporters and the shining star in my life.
I wanted the energy, stamina, etc to have a wonderful relationship with my DH.
I know TMI. LOL!
So why now? Why do I continue to do this? Continue to want to lose weight?
Well, I am not at my goal weight yet. I am still a work in progress.
If my health has improved this much, how much more will it go?
I am curious.
Yes that is an answer. I am curious to see how healthy I can be. How fit my body can become.
I have never been where I am now, so I want to see and be what I can become.
If I stay at this weight, I would be happy.
But why not try for more.
Is that greedy?
I don't think so. I think you should strive to be the best you can be in all ways.
My healthcare team wants me to try for more. Probably based on that ambiguous BMI.
Therefore I am striving to reach my goals
- Goal Weight
- Optimum Health
- Smaller size
- Stronger body
- Positive Attitude
I am sure there are more reasons why. Probably more important ones too, but I haven't thought of them yet. LOL!
I will think of them after I post. Isn't that the way?
I guess I like the attention I am getting too. Not that I encourage it, at least I hope I don't.
But never having been the person to turn people's heads, it is so flattering and such an ego boost to be able to do so.
I hope this doesn't make me a bad person. I don't think so, just an honest one.
So that sums up why for me.
What about you? Why are you doing this?
Hugs & Love,