Wednesday, April 03, 2013
Hey Sparklers. I was having a bit of a down day yesterday. Today is better though I am still perplexed with the insensitivity of others. Yesterday, a close friend loss his wife, my fiance's family has been dealing with some major issues, and a friend requested prayer for a family member. I am not afraid to pray wherever the need hits me so I sat in this conference room alone and began to pray. As soon as I began, I broke down in tears. I know that I am not the best person. I know I have growth opportunities. As a Christian, I feel my ultimate responsibility is to be Christ-like in the way I deal with people and to show love and humility. Lately, I have been overtaken with frustration and disgust in the way that "Christians" treat other people, especially those people who live differently then we may. And its not just us. People in general are being so mean. One of the kids from MTV's "Buckwild" died this week. His family made a FB Memorial page. The fam asked all of his friends to wear camo shirts on Friday in rememberance of him. Next thing you know, these soldiers get on this page and start yelling about all the soldiers that died last month in Irag and start saying he was "nobody but a reality star". Well guess what, he was somebody to the people that created that page and his death is relevant whether he is a reality star, a soldier, or any other person on the street who loses their life. I prayed and cried to God to just help me reach somebody because I feel like we are losing the battle right now. Today I was discouraged by the people who choose to post pics or videos of children being harmed or in pain or suffering. It is the most revolting thing. I flat out said that if anyone on my Newsfeed does any of that, I will delete them. Realistically, I just need to get off of FB because it perpetuates all of the feelings I have had the past two days.
Well now that I am done being Debbie Downer, I got on the scale this morning and was down the 0.8 lbs I gained this month! It is a small victory but I will take it. I have been juicing in the morning but didn't do one this morning because I left my shaker cup at work. I will have a juice before Zumba tonight to get my energy up. I plan on doing 30 min on the treadmill after Zumba and maybe a few shoulder exercises since I will be showing off the shoulders this weekend.
Speaking of that, I ordered a jumper from asos.com
I thought it was really sexy. The model is wearing a size 14 and she is obviously smaller than me so I ordered the size 16. It came in the mail yesterday and as soon as I opened it, I knew it was too big for me. When I tried it on, it sure enough was. Unfortunately, the big party is this weekend so I can't exchange it. I have a cute belt that is pretty wide that I am going to add to keep it holding up. I will also need to get a new bra to really get the girls up there to fill out this romper. It is so sad and yet great at the same time that I am getting closer to the standard size 14. Go me! Go me! Go me!
Well I will talk to you cuties later! Have a fabulous day!