I Want This

Wednesday, April 03, 2013

I keep finding myself saying I want this, I WANT THIS. I have been saying it and then asking it of myself over and over the past few months; do you really want this or do you just want to accept the 50 lbs you lost and move on with other things you have to do. The answer in my head is no don’t move on I want this. I want a lot of things. I want all the things I can do when I am more healthy and skinnier then the things I have put up with doing because I can’t do so many other things at my weight. So yes the answer is No I don’t want to stop at getting a few things back at being happier with myself but not at the happiest I can be.

Now I don’t think I have to lose weight to be happy, no quite the opposite some times, but I do think doing things I want to do make me happier and that is what I want. I want to have the capability to do any ole thing I come up with to make me happy. Walk, dance, skate, fish, climb mountains, visit friends, spend the day shopping without oxygen, volunteering, just any ole thing. Ride a Ride at the amusement park that “I want” is one of my top things.

Do you do that, ask yourself questions and then answer yourself? Sometimes I even say the answers out loud without thinking about the fact that I am in public and people may think I am one step away from the loony toones. Actually sometimes I AM actually one step away from the Looney toons but I don’t care LOL. Now back to my original thoughts, No I have to answer this question a lot on a daily basis or else I will quit the work.

Work you say, work I don’t like that. Nope neither do I but I love the results of work and I love that I am capable of working at losing this weight. Exercising even when I am not in the mood. Walking when my nose is dripping and my hip is tired. Bicycling when I know my Asthma is going to kick up when I hit my fast pace and I am going to need more oxygen (yes I am a oxygen gal or as I call myself sometimes an Oxygen Sucker) as well as my inhaler, and the people around me in the gym think I am sick and they start moving to other machines to get away from the cougher. Work yes but tell someone they are too old, or too weak or too Heavy or too whatever to work out and they can’t exercise and that will change that thing called work into a wonderful thing they want far more than anyone else. I now consider exercise a gift. A gift that was given away by me because I stopped taking care of myself and let my house (self) fall into disarray. Now that I have taken back that gift I do not intend on giving it away again anytime soon!

So yes, it is not always work in my book sometimes fun, but it still needs done and I still do want it! I want to lose this excess baggage and enjoy the lighter side of me. I am now in the 230’s which is 62 pounds less then I was last August and now I find myself asking the question….. Where can I be this August, just four months away from now? I don’t know the answer but I know I want it. I want more walking, more bicycling more FISHING more activity this summer than the last. I want to get out and Enjoy LIFE until I am too tired and feeble to do so and that will be a long long time from now. Heck in my heart I am only in my twenties so I have a long way to go. HA!

Susan aka Sparkinator

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    Hi Susan, it just takes time - instant gratification is not the name of this game - So yes - I feel that I can keep going to different goals. For my its tracking everyday and keeping a watchful eye on my nutrients , researching how enzymes work in the digestive track to really meet the needs of our bodily functions. Your doing great , Susan !! Thanks for the Cider , resting today - Hugs Karen emoticon
    1805 days ago
    Susan: You have a remarkable attitude! Proud, so very proud, of you!

    I couldn't agree with your more . . . sometimes don't feel like doing the work, but sure do enjoy the fruits of the labor! Definitely worth while., So we have to chose our HARD!

    I am so glad to see you say that it's not the actual weight loss that makes you happy -- while it worthy of being happy about for sure! -- but more importantly it's the things you can DO with the loss of weight that are important. Amen to that one! I feel the same way.

    Had to LOL. I know if I answer my own questions, at least I'll be getting the right response! LOL

    HUGS and emoticon ! You're emoticon emoticon
    1808 days ago
  • TROOPER1961
    emoticon Doing a toast for you accomplishments so far and the new 1s upcoming!!! You rock Susan and I am so proud of you!! emoticon
    1809 days ago
    A great blog, and yes you do want this !! You have done a fantastic job since last August, and should be VERY proud of yourself. Keep on pushing, you can do anything you set your mind to.

    You are awesome !! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1809 days ago
    Wonderful blog! emoticon
    1809 days ago
    Susan, this blog is fantastic! It's just what I needed to read today, at this moment. I am in a slump, no, a valley!!! Yes I am. I absolutely hear what you are writing about here. I just posted a feed that makes a commitment to myself to get back at it, but now comes the doing; the work! Love the posters; the first I have and the second I'm copying.
    I'll write you a spark mail later but have to go right now. We need to join forces to encourage each to stick to this journey which has brought us so far and has a future filled with so much more.
    Talk to you later.
    Hugs, Maria emoticon
    1809 days ago
    I agree with everything you said! I know that I can never stop because I have a tendency to go back to my old ways and I don't want to lose any more ground, lol.
    1809 days ago
  • POPSY190
    We do need to keep up with long term goals as well as the more immediate ones. The illustration says it all.
    1809 days ago
    You can SO do this. I'm so proud of your for all you've accomplished and for all the goals you will achieve! emoticon
    1809 days ago
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