Wednesday, April 03, 2013
I could come up with an excuse for anything.
Going to a party -> "Oh, I'm too tired and won't know anyone!"
Going on a vacation -> "There's too much going on at work and I don't know what I'll do!"
Giving up coffee or diet soda -> "I love coffee! I've given up *XYZ*! I should have ONE guilty pleasure!"
Taking out the trash -> "It's too late and not THAT full really!"
But my BEST excuses I saved for A) losing weight, B) sticking to my program, or C) generally dealing with foods.
Here are a few that I've used on more than one occasion:
"I got off my diet because of the car accident. It was just too hard to walk and then before you know it, poof!"
"I got off my diet because I feel in love with coffee. It was a tragic romance."
"I'll start my diet AFTER the holidays!"
"One piece of chocolate totally won't ruin my diet! I PROMISE I'll eat only one."
"Well, I ONLY had half a bag of chips. That's not TOO bad - at least there are some crumbs left!"
"I feel too sick in the morning for breakfast - I'll just throw up whatever I eat! Plus, I'll have coffee, that has milk in it!"
"I just bought all these new clothes - I don't want to lose weight and waste all that money!"
"I really don't look THAT bad! I mean, I'm not COMPLETELY huge and like a ball."
Yeah, some of the excuses worked better than others...
It doesn't matter what it is, if I think it's "too difficult", if I'm afraid of failing, if I don't know what to expect, you can bet your boots I'll come up with an excuse to try to get out of it.
This is probably why my most successful weight loss has occurred after a sharp reality with my health. The very first time, my doctor told me I had high blood pressure (oddly enough, I wasn't visiting the doctor for a physical or heart problems, but a cyst in my foot). The second time, I had to make a weight criteria to get admitted into a program. And the third time, I was diagnosed with sleep apnea. In all of these times, the fear of failure was outweighed by something else I feared more - fear of having high blood pressure when I was so young, fear of being excluded from something I wanted, fear of perhaps dying in my sleep.
I honestly wish I hadn't let fear drive me to keep making excuses. Imagine, for instance, if I hadn't used the excuse of my car accident or my love of coffee, what shape I could be in right now. Maybe, instead of trying to get within my BMI, I'd already be there. Maybe I could be running in a 5K. Maybe I could be doing yoga or pilates. Maybe I would be vegetarian or vegan. Maybe I would have cooked more of my meals. Maybe the only thing different would be I wouldn't have been diagnosed with sleep apnea. Who knows?
I may have started this weight loss journey this time out of fear, but now my motivation is different. I want to be healthy. No more will I make excuses for "falling off the wagon". I DESERVE good health. I DESERVE a great life and a healthy body. And making excuses will NOT give me either of those.