Come to think of it: I'm pretty happy!
Wednesday, April 03, 2013
Sitting in the train back to the Wairarapa. My headphones on to block all the "interesting" conversations around me. I am listening to Schubert's concert 1 and have a window seat facing backward so I can see Wellington harbour as we travel to Petone. the first stop after going right past the coast.
The sky is that calm autumny sky with low hanging clouds and the sea is calm. The ranges across the water look peaceful today too. Though I don't know. Maybe I prefer it when the sea's wild. Or when it's picture perfect summery blue. Truth is: the harbour and this view is always perfect and the perfect antidote to work.
Schubert sets a perfect scene and I remind myself: This is when I was going to think about how I could get happy again after eating too many fats and cals. But there I go again drifting blissfully off with the music.
Having driven to Martinborough I am the only person in the pool on this Wednesday night. The salt water is crisp but soft and it's just light enough to not put the lights on. As I breaststroke through the water I try and focus on my question: how to get happy again. Hmmm, yeah, how to do that? I gaze onto the flax outside the window where a tui is just resting, stare out over the ranges in the background. See the rain coming down and absorb the quietness in blissful thoughtlessness.
Back in the car, it's a 10-15 minute drive back to Featherston. It's still light and I look at the cows on the hills, the landscape in the light that so belongs to this area of vastness and emptiness. It's beautiful, but I remind myself to focus on how to get happy again.
Wandering back ito the house. Still warm enough to have only the screen door shut, Orange Man has made delicious tortillas with spicy chicken and green bell peppers and red onion, with a little yoghurt and sweet chili sauce. We sit at the table, chat and watch the Aussie MKR and I think: I AM pretty happy. Actually!
Does/did it work for you too: focusing on how to get happy and realising actually you already are pretty happy already?