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So I'm back here again...

Wednesday, April 03, 2013

I've been gone for a long time. In that time I've gained 15 pounds, really allowed my diabetes and high blood pressure to get out of control, found out I was pregnant and lost the baby to what all professionals believe was uncontrolled diabetes and blood pressure and I've really gotten in this whole "as long as everyone else's needs and wants are met I'll naturally be okay" funk. Truth be told I'm at my wit's end. I'm tired of taking care of everyone else's needs and wants but my own. I always put myself on hold or the back burner to make sure everyone else is happy while I'm feeling miserable inside myself. Well, I'm going to try my best to take care of myself first and foremost. I'm ready to not be fat anymore. I'm ready to not be tired after walking to the end of my driveway and back. I'm ready to not be sick for two week every other 2 weeks. I'm ready to take and maintain control of my life again. I can do all that AND take care of my family properly...I just need to figure out how.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
TANYAMWA 4/9/2013 4:43AM

    Welcome back. I know that it is hard, but keep it up. You can do it!

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ONENESSMOM 4/3/2013 12:18PM

    Welcome back.
I too have recently come back to sparkpeople after hitting an all time high (for me) in weight of over 156 pounds. I have different health issues (Depression and Anemia) but no how awful it can be when things get out of control.
I know how hard it can be sometimes to put yourself first, but it can be what's best for your family.
If you feel good (and good about yourself) you have more energy to do things for and with your family. When you take the time to do healthy things you are setting a good example.
I wish you luck getting your health issues under control. YOU CAN DO IT, and if you need help there are lots of Sparkfriends to call on for advice and support. emoticon

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STELLASMYBEBE 4/3/2013 10:47AM

    Welcome back!
I have always had trouble putting myself first. I feel guilty if I do. If you find the secret to allowing yourself to be put first, share it. LOL!
Good luck this next leg of the journey. This is a good place to be.

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ANNIE924 4/3/2013 10:45AM

    Welcome back. We will be here to help you.

I am so sorry for all you've gone through.

I also am attempting to get my diabetes under control, it's a challenge but I know we can do it.

Take care of yourself.

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STEPHANIE302013 4/3/2013 10:43AM

    you need to be a priority - you can't take care of your family the way you want to if you're not taking care of yourself first! I'm so sorry about all the challenges you've encountered - but you've made the first step by coming back - you're going to do great! emoticon

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