Wednesday, April 03, 2013
I've been gone for a long time. In that time I've gained 15 pounds, really allowed my diabetes and high blood pressure to get out of control, found out I was pregnant and lost the baby to what all professionals believe was uncontrolled diabetes and blood pressure and I've really gotten in this whole "as long as everyone else's needs and wants are met I'll naturally be okay" funk. Truth be told I'm at my wit's end. I'm tired of taking care of everyone else's needs and wants but my own. I always put myself on hold or the back burner to make sure everyone else is happy while I'm feeling miserable inside myself. Well, I'm going to try my best to take care of myself first and foremost. I'm ready to not be fat anymore. I'm ready to not be tired after walking to the end of my driveway and back. I'm ready to not be sick for two week every other 2 weeks. I'm ready to take and maintain control of my life again. I can do all that AND take care of my family properly...I just need to figure out how.