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Wednesday, April 03, 2013

I saw this the other day and it got me thinking (can you smell the smoke?)

Where are you on this spectrum?

When I first became a "Spark People" back in 2009, I was toggling somewhere between "I CAN'T DO IT" and "I WANT TO DO IT"

However, "I WON'T DO IT" tended to trump those two.

When I created a Spark Page and joined the Spark Community in May of last year, I had progressed to toggling between "I WANT TO DO IT" and "HOW DO I DO IT?" and "I'LL TRY TO DO IT" although "I WON'T DO IT" still reared its ugly head often enough to keep me treading water in the same place, much to my frustration and lack of progress on the scale.

The scale has always been my enemy. It mocks me and when I don't get results, or results "fast enough" (whatever that means) it say:

"See...all that work and what do you get? Not much. Just go ahead and have that pizza. You deserve it and it won't matter anyway."

For the past 21 days, I have ditched the scale and my "limiting belief" that food has some sort of power over me and I'm living in the space of "I CAN DO IT" and "I WILL DO IT"

That is the new me at the top kicking the old me down the steps.

I can comfortably survive on 1300-1600 calories a day and not starve. I've come to think of that little bit of hunger that I occasionally feel as the feeling of fat leaving my body. My stomach growling is it applauding me for not over stuffing it at the last meal.

See this article if you want to know where I got that thought from:

I can drink my glasses and glasses of water through out the day and not resent it, or think it too much of a chore.

I can work in some sort of fitness or extra movement everyday.

For the last 21 days, I can say: "Yes, I did it!" to those things that I can control.

The first day of Summer is Friday June 21.

What can you do in the next 79 days?

What will you do in the next 79 days?

Have a great day and keep ...

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Edit for Tortoises' Unite Team: Thanks for the nod for the blog of the week!

Well I certainly qualify as a Tortoise!! From an all time high of 260 lbs, I have "lived" at 195-215lbs for the last 15 years!! Last time I weighed myself, I was at 206 lbs. I think I'm "in alignment" to get to my "fighting weight" of 175 in this next year and hope my 45 year old body can agree on that as a fabulous and peaceful place to live for the rest of my life!

I am Tortoise...hear me roar!!


Spark on and NEVER EVER GIVE UP!!
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    awesome inspirational
    1786 days ago
    great blog
    1786 days ago
    Woohoo...go you....awesome blog....
    Love the stairs
    1786 days ago
  • POPSY190
    Great blog with plenty of insight. I get stuck frequently at the "Try to do it" stage which is really limboland! Like you, I try to make it a daily routine to eat reasonably, move regularly and establish sustainable habits. emoticon
    1787 days ago
    Inspirational! emoticon
    1787 days ago
    Wow......thats a great visual!!! Thanks for sharing!

    1787 days ago
  • CAROLYN0107
    Great blog. Congratulations on the Tortoise Blog of the Week!
    1787 days ago
  • TINY67
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    1787 days ago
    Great illustrations. I agree with you 100%.

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    1787 days ago
    Congratulations - this blog has been selected as the blog of the week for the Tortoise's Unite Team. It is inspirational and motivational and lovingly written.

    1787 days ago
    1788 days ago
    Good motivation!
    1788 days ago
    Great blog you are a favourite blogger of mine thanks
    1789 days ago
  • DARLY55
    Great blog! I enjoyed the Physics article very much. It was a good way to explain metabolic happenings to an intellectual who hasn't a clue how eating less and moving more really works, and that being hungry is not a bad thing at all.

    And congrats on getting to a higher level of willful thinking! I'm right there with you.
    1789 days ago
    Oh, and Michelle, I just wanted to say that it seems to me you are reaching the state of unconscious competence, perhaps right now you are in the step before of conscious competence!! But it seems to me that soon you will be integrating these skills without even thinking about it - it's just part of what you do! Fantastic!

    And I'm not sure I'm ready to eat 2000 calories/day. I think it scares me still. I think I can beat the binge monster anyway and am going to give it my all! xo
    1789 days ago
    Great blog -- especially right at the beginning there, realizing the difference between "I won't" and "I can't". That can be eye-opening, to realize that refusing to reach a goal is actually worse than simply not being capable of reaching a goal.

    You da bomb, girlie!
    1789 days ago
    emoticon !
    You are very inspiring!
    Thank You!
    Continued SUCCESS!
    1789 days ago
    Lisa: I'm happy to ditch the b!itch!!

    RIP Old Me!!

    1789 days ago
    Good blog!
    I think I'm at 'I AM DOING IT!!!'
    1789 days ago
    Ah, yes! Smelled the smoke! LOL...

    emoticon Loved your blog, the link to "The Physics Diet," and continued learning from the shared comments! WooHoo! This is the Spark Quantum Effect!

    My take aways:

    Fat is an energy dense substance... aha! So that explains why it just doesn't "drop" off me as I would like.

    Evaporating fat... aha! What a great concept to deal with hunger. I have made some progress learning to appreciate my body sending me hunger signals and eating when I get these signals. On the other hand, I have noticed that for some reason, my morning hunger is not consistent. Haven't wrapped my arms around why this is yet. Many mornings I don't feel hungry until a couple hours after I awake. A very possible reason is that when I do overeat, it is more often than not, in the evening.

    Deep breathing is healthy for reasons other than stress relief... Now I understand the additional incentive of cleansing breaths; I am breathing out the carbon dioxide and water vapor from my fat loss efforts! Yeah!

    My very, very favorite... because it is so true in my experience:
    emoticon "A sharp appetite turns a meal into a feast."

    emoticon on your continued Streak to Summer!

    YOU ARE DOING IT! emoticon

    1789 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/3/2013 1:36:26 PM
  • LE7_1234
    Michelle, I'm so excited for the current you and all she's been able to accomplish.

    But I felt so sad reading that you want to kick the old you down the stairs....

    She's part of you, that Michelle who said "I can't" or "I won't". And she's the one who started thinking "I want to do it" and asking "how do I do it."

    Yeah, I know that sometimes things like that in blogs are there more for the effect of the composition, but still... think about it. That younger you deserves credit for overcoming the blocks that turned the staircase into a mountain.

    Um, could that metaphor possibly be any more mixed?? :-)

    Congratulations to the current you who is still doing it, and to the past you, who was able to start you on the journey.
    1789 days ago
    That's wonderful Michelle. You are doing it! Bravo!

    I love the idea that hunger is the feeling of fat leaving the body. That's a great one.

    Recently I've been thinking about the low calorie diet situation. In this book I'm reading about binging, the woman explains that low calorie diets lead to binges. Geneen Roth says the same thing. My life has been a clear example of this. I go from the high of losing and eating little and enjoying hunger, to binging. So I'm either taking in 1200-1500 calories/day and losing, or I'm binging and gaining.

    I think I'm going to experiment with eating more (not binging, not gorging), allowing myself more calories than I have in the past but not binging. I want to see what happens. I have a feeling fat will still leave my body because eating 2000 calories/day is a lot less than eating 6000 calories/day several days/week.

    OK, sorry to take up so much space here. Just something I'm thinking about trying...
    1789 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/3/2013 4:56:27 PM
    On every step you body was able to do it. It was only your head that kept you back. How are you working to change your attitude toward EVERYTHING in life, because you CAN do it!!!!!
    1789 days ago
  • LADYJ6942
    Great blog and a great way to get people thinking. hmm in 79 days I'll be lighter, healthier and ready for the Warrior Dash!
    1789 days ago
    Great! I'm finally in the I WILL DO IT and I DESERVE IT spot.
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    1789 days ago
    Great Blog! Yes, you can do it and will do it! Keep Pushing!
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