Wednesday, April 03, 2013
Since early November, I have been dealing with my 16-year old son who has been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and over the top anxiety. He has not been to school since then and currently is on home school and home with me all day. The doctors are wanting to put him into a residential treatment program but my husband is still fighting it saying he wants to give it another try. The problem is, he works 10-11 hour days at the office and the comes home and goes back to work so he doesn't really get the full effect of the situation. In amongst all of this, my mother is 81 years old and is slowing down rather rapidly. I'm having to run her to doctor's, do her grocery shopping, and just day to day care. So far this week alone I've taken her to doctor, my son to the doctor and her back to the doctor today and it's only Wednesday. I also have a job working from home that puts its dibs on my time. AAAHHHH!!!
I've been trying to take better care of myself to take care of everyone else. I've gotten back to the gym 2 days per week for the last week. I've only been once this week and was going to go this morning, but I got out of bed and my muscles were just limp and I didn't have the motivation to do much of anything. I also suffer from chronic depression which also plays a part in the equation. Since my son got sick, I've had to double my dosage of anti-depressants just to deal with the stress of everything. I know that exercise helps when I do it to give me more energy. Just need to find the energy to get the energy. Sounds very confusing I know. They say God will never give you more than you can handle but sometimes I just want to yell "time out!" and run away.