Wednesday, April 03, 2013
My dad had a really bad day yesterday. they gave him some pain meds for his back pain and it completely knocked him out. He slept all day long and was vey very confused and incoherent. The CT showed he had 1 significant stroke (most recent) as well as 2 mini-strokes (TIAs) in the past. My mom said she thought he was having TIAs and was worried, but he wouldn't listen of course. His brain MRI was clean and his caarotid artery test showed 100% blockage in the left artery which the MD said probably resulted from his cancer and radiation some 30 years ago now. The MD said that is why God gave us 2 of everything and that Dad's right artery was enough to keep blood flowing to his brain. His heartrate and blood pressure were rather low yesterday with that drug they gave him. I do not approve that they gave this drug, but they gave it before any of us got to the hospital. My dad keeps telling me that this is just another little bump in the road and he will be fine. I'm having my doubts. I'm scared.
I'm on my way in a few minutes to take Jack to the doggie neurologist for his MRI. His dizziness seems to have worsened too. He's actually been falling over. The night before last he couldn't even jump up into the bed. We have to take him to Greensboro, NC. They have to put him under so he was not allowed to eat last night and boy did that make him unhappy! If you are so inclined, please pray for my pup. Yes, he is 8 years old, but he is still my one and only baby boy!
So, the plan was to move Dad to a rehab center today, but that probably is not happening due to his lack of activity yesterday. My fear is that he will not come out of what they are assuming is a drugged state. Before yesterday he had left body partial paralysis. Yesterday he couldn't use his left side.
My dad has been through it in his life. He had 2 grown children die within 4 months of each other. He had cancer and survived. He spent the first 2 years of his retirement caring for my mom and then she died. Not even 4 months after she died he has this stroke. He's always been there for me. I have to be there for him and I am feeling oh so weak! All he wanted to do was travel and golf after retirement.... And now he is partially paralyzed. Both of my parents always gave, gave, gave. It all feels so unfair.
Jack is a loving and good dog. He never deserved this either. Unfair!
Yeah, I know life isn't fair. I know God supposedly doesn't give me more than I can handle. But, man oh man I'm struggling right now. My dad is a very good looking, very young looking 67 years old. He looks pitiful laying in that bed.
I know my thoughts have wandered and I apologize. I need to finish readying to take Jack and call someone to go see my Dad while I'm with Jack.... So, later!