I've started reading the book Brain Over Binge by Kathryn Hansen www.amazon.com/Brain-ove
I've struggled with binge eating since I was 11 years old (I'm 42!) and I've read countless books on the subject, seen therapists, been in eating disorder groups, and on and on. This summer, I was sure I had beaten the monster, when I discovered Inside Out Weight Loss, and went for about 4 months binge free. It was incredible and I was elated.
Then life hit, cancer actually, and it all went to hell. My binging came back with a vengeance and for the past 5 months, I've struggled every day with my urges. Most days I crumble and as a result, I've gained about 20 pounds, often feel physically ill, have a horrible time sleeping, etc. Oh, and PS, I'm also working full time as a teacher, with an 8 year old daughter, and have to take care of my terminally ill husband. Clearly the binging is a real hindrance to all that.
OK, so back to the title of my blog. In two weeks, my husband has his next chemo treatment (yesterday was a doozy and we have two weeks off now). I had a bad binge yesterday when we got home from the hospital, after a really terrible time there, and of course, lamented about it all night long.
Well I woke today with the idea that I'd set a two week goal. For the next two weeks, I will live binge free, and thus remorse free (see yesterday's blog). I will attempt to use Ms Hansen's strategies of listening to my "animal mind" and realizing that the way to end binging is to stop binging by ignoring urges to binge. I'm still a bit unclear about it all, but I've got quite a few of my own tricks to put into place, so will use those as well:
Meditate when I get home from school (work)
Make herbal tea after dinner
Commit to eating seated, slowly and mindfully for all meals and snacks
Listening to IOWL podcasts
Connecting fully on Spark
And finally, I will be accountable here daily and publicly.
I want to go to our next appointment full of energy, life force, and confidence that I can take care of myself as well as I'm caring for everyone else around me.