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I started thinking about many of things...and here's a few

Tuesday, April 02, 2013

I am a little nervous when I think about my future. I am nervous about getting healthier and slimmer. I have been large for quite a few years now, and it just doesn't seem possible I can be anything but large. I know with that way of thinking, I will never reach my weight loss goals and make those life changes that I so need and deserve. But then do I stop that thought in it's tracks and imagine myself smaller and healthier??

I really do not want to continue with the doubtful thinking, but it is so hard to fight that inner critic, inner dialogue, and inner thinking that brings me down. There are so many changes I want to see in myself, it's hard to see towards the future when I get stuck in these ruts.

Maybe I should stop thinking so much and just start making small changes in my lifestyle? I just want to be ready for when I do start losing, I want my mind to be caught up with the changes and not defeat myself and efforts.

Tomorrow will be better with exercise. I will definitely exercise tomorrow and stick with the program. Today it was such a cold day and I froze myself in the morning and that kind of threw me off all day long. I just couldn't warm up and felt horrible. Adding to the fact that the chili I made did not settle right in my stomach. Anyway, thanks in advance for your feedback, jen
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WHIRLYDERVY 4/7/2013 10:18PM

    I just "started back on track" again and it was pretty scary the first few days. I even cried thinking about all the "deprivation" I feel and the "good feelings" I get from sugar...

First three days were tough but I somehow forced myself to get out and exercise... Something I've been simultaneously promising myself AND dreading for about 6 months while I told myself I needed to get started...

I'm SO GRATEFUL my nutritionist turned me onto SparkPeople; it's fun to track food and read others' blogs!

Hang in there! We can do this together. This East Coast weather is awful but it looks like we're going into some better weather this next week!

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EBURGITE 4/6/2013 2:34PM

    emoticon i think most of this battle for finding health is won or lost in our mind. lots of baby steps toward changing how you think about yourself will get you to your destination. hang in there!

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CVRONEK 4/5/2013 8:26AM

    It is very normal to have thoughts like that. Also a fear of failure..what if I can't do it?

Well, you can knock can't right out of here!

You have a GREAT start, because you are thinking about it, instead of ignoring it.
You are taking small steps, each day.

I love that you worked out with Richard Simmons! He can motivate a stone! emoticon He also is a kind spirit.

If you can do the small steps for a month, you WILL start to see and feel a difference.
By then it will be a habit and you will look forward to it.
Confidence will start to emerge and then you know it is the right thing to do.

emoticon Have fun with it and don' be afraid to look forward to changes.

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MKELLY72 4/3/2013 11:35AM

    You're aren't alone in your fears about what to expect from the upcoming changes to your body--I was there too, and as it turned out--it was much easier to adjust to than I expected. I really believe that has everything to do with taking the journey slow and steady--it gives a person time to adjust and accept the "new you" when the changes are gradual and sustainable. That is one of the biggest differences between my most recent and successful attempt at achieving a healthy weight--all the other times it was some quick/easy results angle--and that never lasted, and I had a hard time accepting the new me.
Keep making small positive changes--celebrate them all--acknowledge non-scale victories, and you will have this nailed!!

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WISLNDR 4/3/2013 7:19AM

    It's a lifetime journey filled with new things to learn and old habits to unlearn and it all adds up to an awesome life!!


Thanks for the friend add; I have done the same!)


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LIVELYLULU37 4/3/2013 4:53AM

    I did get in exercise last night. I did Richard Simmons Sweating to the Oldies!! It was great!! I will do it again soon!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AMALIA8 4/2/2013 10:53PM

    It can be hard to balance hopefulness and realism I find. I personally am working on accepting who I am no matter my weight (a hard thing for me) and then at the same time I'm taking those small steps to change my lifestyle to a healthier one (both physically and spiritually). So, right now I'm focusing on getting 8 cups of water a day and logging onto Sparkpeople and doing a bit of Bible reading each day. So far, so good. I would suggest that you dream/hope for what you want to look like and the weight you want to be, but at the same time, live in the now! You can do this! Keep up the fantastic work!

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LAILATN 4/2/2013 9:37PM

    Definitely one day at a time - one meal at a time sometimes! Small changes really do add up. And you'll be feeling so much better as things change that it will propel you forward and give you more motivation. Don't overthink. Just do! You can do it! emoticon

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TWINZMOM7 4/2/2013 8:20PM

  You can do's one step at a time! emoticon

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