Last week was stressful for me. Work stuff finally picked up, but so did both of my freelance projects! I like staying busy, but that was a bit much after a long period of things trickling in. When I have too much going on, I feel like I'm not doing a good job on any one thing. I can focus really well, but I'm not used to racing the clock anymore and it's distracting. How did I do that every day for over 10 years in newspapers?! Anyway, my mom added a huge mess to my plate to clean up, and I'm still trying to figure out how to deal with that.
OK, done complaining! I got in my 3 Kaia FIT workouts last week. Friday is yoga/pilates day, and it's been awhile since I've done yoga. I feel very out of practice, but it's good to get that type of activity in once a week. It is not relaxing though! I swear I think I sweat more in that class than the non-stop circuit training the other two days. Brutal!
I was so close to reaching 1,000 fitness minutes last month. So. Close. Ugh. I had 970. I had some lovely hiking plans fall through and I squandered the time on other things.
I haven't set any goals in a while, so here's what I want to accomplish in April:
1,000 fitness minutes. I think I can do this. My Kaia classes will get me over 700, and I've been pretty active on weekends lately. I just need to DO IT!
Jump rope. I have two goals here: Jump rope for 1 minute without stopping and jumping for 5 minutes as a warmup on non-Kaia days.
Eat more and eat clean: My nutritionist tells me to stick to 1300 cals/day; SP tells me 1420-1770; and a calculation of my BMR, TDEE, and a 20 percent reduction tells me 2300+. Um....kthanx. I'm working out more consistently and burning a bunch of calories with the circuit training, and I'm freaking hungry all the time! Like, I will fight someone in the parking lot hungry. So, clearly, I need to eat more. The scale isn't moving much, but my work pants are falling down. I need to find the right calorie range/goal for me, and that's going to take a bit of experimenting, I think. Also, I eat pretty clean, but I've been trying to cook more at home and eat less from packages for convenience. Funny how the calories are lower that way....! But then I think, how do I eat more and eat clean?! April will be full of experiments for me.
Give myself a flippin' break. This is a big thing for me on a few levels. I don't think I'm superwoman and that I can do it all. I know that I have to prioritize things to get the important stuff done. My house will never be spotless and that has to be OK. I won't know every answer someone asks me at work (I'm not an engineer, people! Grr.). And I can't do the advanced moves in my workouts (yet), but I can keep moving and jump back in after a few seconds of recovery. After my class Monday, I was starting to beat myself up over not being able to do a minute-long drill where you do volleyball squat jumps and high-five your partner. It's hard, but I felt like I should have been able to do it for a minute. I was exhausted and couldn't maintain the jumps, so I kept squatting and high-fiving and did the last 10 seconds for real. I said something to my partner about it and she said, "That was not easy! You're being too hard on yourself." As I was walking out the door, another girl stopped me and said, "You did so awesome. You never quit!" I struggle with thinking that I'm not working hard enough because I have to rest for a few seconds during these intense 1-minute drills or that I can't/don't do the jumping part of an exercise. But in the moment, I am giving it my all. I leave sweat all over that floor! I push myself to do things that I don't like and that are not comfortable and that make me feel inadequate. And I just keep going. I need to realize and accept that THAT is worth something.
Those few things will be my focus this month. I think I can achieve or at least make some headway on all of these.
On another note, here are two exercises that we do that absolutely kill me.
Crab crawl: We're supposed to go from one end of the room to the other, but my body doesn't work that way! I can lift myself off the floor but then I can't move my arms. I end up lifting and then scooting myself across the floor. Awkward.
Reverse cobbler crunches: Well, this is what the instructor called them. I call them, WHYYYY?! We do this up-and-down move without the ball, so your feet are touching.
Tonight, I'm going to jump rope for a warmup and then do something fun like Just Dance.
Have a good week!