It's Okay. Just okay.
Tuesday, April 02, 2013
Gigi passed on this morning. I'm not sad for her because she was ready to go. She made that very clear. I know that I am sad for those who are left and those who will miss her...that includes me. She always made sure to ask me how my work was...no one ever asks me about work. I loved that about her...I loved her. My son loved her so I'm sad for my little son who cried because he couldn't see his Gigi and was mad because we couldn't take him to her. I'm sad for my sweetheart because his last grandparent died. I'm sad for my brothers and sisters in law and my nieces and nephew and my step kids. I'm sad for my mother-in-law who lost her last parent. It's okay to be sad. It's better to deal with it. I won't eat my feelings...I can't. I need to work on getting myself healthy so that my kids will wait longer to lose me. I want to be as healthy as I can for as long as I can. If I continue to gain weight and not lose any I might have 20-30 years left. I want to be there for them longer than that.