Tuesday, April 02, 2013
Around this time last year I started buying cute little Spring dresses that were a size that I hadn't ever imagined would fit me. I was nervous about these purchases, mainly because I still wasn't feeling skinny and was so nervous I'd just end up putting all the weight back on again, and these dresses would end up staring at me in the wardrobe reminding me of the few minutes in my life when I was thin.
Well, anyway, it turns out that I was wrong. I've been at a fairly stable weight for a year now (about 117 - 120lbs) and today, with Spring shining so brightly through my window, I dared to see what those dresses looked like on me.
The answer: Better!!
How wonderful is that? Not so much that the dresses still fit me, but that I've managed to prove that inner monster of a voice wrong.
Sometimes I feel like maintaining my weight is turning me into a Warrior Princess when it comes to dealing with inner negativity. I can almost feel this Warrior karate chop those voices down as I prove to myself that I can be and do things these voices were telling me were simply impossible. It is both liberating and terrifying at the same time. Liberating because I believe in myself more and more everyday, terrifying, because I'm starting to realise that it is so much more possible to achieve my dreams than I ever thought. It just takes a little bit of courage each day, and a willingness to prove those inner negative voices wrong - one karate chop at a time!!