Tuesday, April 02, 2013
Wow! Its been forever since I posted. I have been sick as a dog since after christmas. I was going through all sorts of craziness.
First it started with a cyst on the back of my ear that got infected and I felt like I was dying. Waking up in deep sweats with dizzy spells and confusion. So I went to the doctor and he put me on an antibiotic that cannot be described or pronounced. It was horrible. Just horrible. I was on that for about 15days then like matters couldnt get any worse. I got a UTI!!!! Wow! I was so grumpy its not even funny. So I got one of those at home tests to see if I was sure I had one and it came up positive, Joy!
A few days later I went back to the doctor and he confirmed my UTI with a pee test and said I also have ecoli
I almost fell of the chair in shock. I was freaking out.. how did I get ecoli???? So he changed my antibiotic which was just the DEVIL!!! Oh man... it was so much worse that the previous antibiotic I was on. My stomach was in knots and felt like I was going to throw up every five minutes. The gas pains were unbearable. The body aches, chills and shakes. I just had enough!!!! So I called my doctor and said look I cannot take this anymore I am done with it!!! It makes me feel horrible and I am done. So you can put me on something else but if its worse or just as bad as this... I will be convinced you are trying to kill me!!! So he said just stop taking it and we will see how it goes. So a few days later I started feeling like my old self again. It took about a week to finally feel normal again after taking that stuff. My body just completely rejected it. It was terrible!!!
I have to go on Saturday for a full blood work panel of tests because its been since 2011. He didn't like my results then.. he isn't going to like them now. He wanted to put me on cholesterol medication and aspirin everyday because he said I was border line heart disease. But I assured him I would loose weight and take it off fast... which I didnt. I am the exact same weight I was 2yrs ago!!!! What the hell I suck. I originally planned on being at my goal weight 6months ago... but now I am 3 pounds heavier than I started with!!! PSHHHHH!!!!
So now because I am lazy and I suck at losing weight. I am going to have to go on cholesterol medication!!! I am just so upset at myself the words do not describe. Everything I have tried does not work!!! Or it does and I am just so lazy I cannot get the hang of it. I want this more than anything in the world. I cant express how badly I want to be at my goal weight. For my health and to feel comfortable in my own skin again which has been years since I felt that way.
I just need to get my ass up off the couch and work out.. eat better and just it done!!! I could be where I want to be this time next year if I really just put my mind to it!!!