Tuesday, April 02, 2013
April finds me still where I was in December. I do fine for a few weeks then I slide. It isn't pretty and is very frustrating but during those times of slide, I don't care. I am so focused on what happened to throw me into the slide I just don't care. Then I pull myself together and rush back it to watching what I eat and exercise. It is a cycle I'm praying about. Begging God to fix is more realistic. I always seems I have intense things happening in my life. I try to convince myself that is normal but during the emotional ups/downs it seems overwhelming. As Mother Theresa said," I know God won't give me more than I can handle, I just wish he didn't trust me with so much." So I battle is this Me or God? Life can be so wishy-washy.