Tuesday, April 02, 2013
Last night was really restless. I had several bad dreams, but I'm pretty sure I know where I can pin them; I watched a film last night called Urbania, which I had never seen before. I had thought it was a horror film to the effect of Urban Legend, but it was actually more a drama about a man who had witnessed the rape and murder of his partner; a good film, but it stuck with me and I inadvertently took it to bed with me. Combine that with the fact that just 4 days ago, I finally cut my abusive ex completely free of my life, and I can pinpoint the source of my dreams (in which I was killed (among other things) by said ex) quite easily.
I stayed in bed, sleeping/dozing until about 10am. I woke feeling not-too-ill, and full of energy, so I bounced out of bed and started picking up and putting away the laundry that tends to find itself stuffed down the side of my bed. This has since transformed into going through my (horribly disorganized) airing cupboard to throw out anything I don't want and use, including the bedding set I was raped on a year ago. I'm in two minds whether I should turn it into a dress (thus keeping the negative past with me, but transforming it) or give it to charity (thus conceding defeat and accepting I can't have it in my life anymore, but being free of it). I'd also like to make a dent in the post-Easter washing up (my most hated chore) and try and get my finances under control for Friday. I'm in two minds whether I should just get rid of my BT phoneline (which I don't use) and the internet that goes with it, and get a portable internet USB stick, which I've heard aren't as good.
I am reminded once again of the progress I've made in life, in general. My health may not be where I want it yet, but over all I'm getting better every day in other ways. Similarly, today my focus will be primarily on housework. I'll do my wii-fit test and may play some games on there, and I'll do a SP work-out (purely because it's super easy to track my calories burned on there) but I won't spend more than, say, 45 minutes doing exercise today I don't think. That said, I'll be spending at least half an hour doing budgeting and school stuff on the computer, and will be working on a commission project for a friend, as well as AT LEAST 250 items of housework (75 down).
Breakfast this morning will be another 1 1/2 cups of fruit with yogurt and seeds, and probably a pancake or waffle to starch it out. I've always been a firm believer that a bigger breakfast is the way to start the day! A big glass of water and big mug of coffee will accompany.